Friday, May 30, 2008Y
1:48 PM
finally im back here blogging le.. actually wanna blog for the past few days de.. but i rly hav got no mood to do anything for the past few days.. =] so sorry for those hu do come n read..tings aint going any good for mi at all recently.. jus change n job at the beginning of tis week.. but although work there is good n its still okie.. but it aint like the past anymore.. when i can hav some much free time slacking.. at the side im working now.. i will be so damn busy.. so busy tat i wont even hav the time to read any sms n not to talk abt cals.. n working here now means injuries everywhere.. its been jus 1 week n i hav got cuts almost everywhere on both of my hands.. some cut is jus so deep tat the blood jus wont stop dripping..
n guys.. dun misunderstood.. i noe im in a veri down period now for almost everything.. but i aint foolish enuf to cut myself.. its all jus bcos of work tat i keep cut myself on my hands.. so dun tink tat i cut myself bcos im feeling down cos i aint tat dumb.. =]
been facing lots of problems recently oso.. its jus too much to spell it all out.. abt work abt r/s abt my 21st bday.. as for work i tink most tat noe mi well will noe wat kind of job im working as le.. so nd not explain anymore.. as for r/s.. its been getting from a sweet n loving one to bad n now to worse le.. i hav rly got no idea how come tings will turn out tis way.. or i shld say i dunno how come all my r/s will oways turn out to be in such a way.. all of it seems so similar.. although they r all diff gals from diff place n diff char.. but its oways the same de.. although i hav put in my 100% in all my r/s but none of it seems to turn out good..
i jus dunno wat the problem.. izzit jus mi or izzit them? izzit tat the way i hav treated them is too well tat they will take mi for granted.. or izzit tat i hav not done good enuf for them to love mi more.. or izzit tat its the punishment for mi for all the bad tings tat i hav done.. if its rly a punishment for mi den i would rather bear the punishment all by myself.. i dun wan the person i love to be facing the punishment tgt wif mi.. cos it has got nth to do wif them at all.. watever bad tings which i hav done in the past.. its all my own doing n its got nth to do wif anyone else.. so if its a punishment for mi den jiu let the one hu suffers be mi alone n leave those tat i love lohx..
as for my bday.. i dun even noe if the person i wan most to be there will be there anot.. so i rly dunno if there is still any point to celebrate tis bday anymore liaox le.. jus feel so suckie rite now.. i dunno wat to say now oso.. jus feeling kinda crazy now.. till shi xian oso dun rly dare to talk to mi.. pls.. i aint any monster n i dun eat ppl.. =[