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Saturday, September 30, 2006Y

11:48 PM

Hmm.. Woke up at abt 11+ lidat bahx.. Heex.. Den faster bathe le den jiu go pay my bill all tat le.. But end up i was still earlier.. Haix.. i oways hav to wait de.. :( Waited for Jonathan at Redhill MRT.. Den took the stupid train to Tanah Merah.. Waited for Dumdum at there for awhile jiu head to Expo le..

But den cant find any ATM sia.. Cos wanna draw money mahx.. Walk all the way to the end there sia den walk back again.. Jus wanna enter the place onli den all those stupid idiot jiu throw all the flyers at mi sia.. Boo.. Sianx.. Den walk for abt 1hr lidat jiu came out liaox le..

Cabbed back to Jonathan hse.. First time took a cab till so jialat sia.. Buay tahan lohx.. Keep on brake brake till head oso pain.. Feel like vomitting oso.. Lalala.. Eat bak kut teh.. But dun taste like oso.. Everything is so suckie today.. Den went to Jonathan hse slack lohx.. Eat at West Mall b4 we went hm..

Took train to Yishun to change bus.. But so suay.. Mit one stupid mother fucker.. Come in the train onli jiu all the way stare at mi like as if i kill his whole fucking family.. Haix.. Lucky Dumdum wif mi.. If not i jus cfm fight liaox le.. Den took 969 back to Tamp.. After she board the bus den i oso left le.. On the way back tink of alot of tings oso.. So many tings.. My past are coming back to haunt mi now le bahx..

[[For those hu noe abt my past..]]
Its all up to u guys to c whether u all still wanna be frens wif mi anymore.. Tats all i can say.. Tings are getting so diff now.. Everyone looks at mi till dunno like wat lidat.. I hav had enuf of all tis liaox le.. Someting is gonna change..

(●̮̮̃•̃) New Year New Beginning (●̮̮̃•̃).

2:53 AM

Lalalalala.. Today slp till 1+ lidat den Dumdum wake mi up.. So nice to slp sia.. Haha.. Rly becoming more n more like a pig liaox le lahx.. Boo.. Woot.. Later going to KBox soon liaox le.. Weee.. Cant wait sia.. So long din go liaox le..

Reach Ps at 3+ 4 bahx.. Dumdum n Roy reach first.. Den we go eat duck rice.. But onli i eat nia.. Cos they 2 eat already.. Den nth to do mahx.. So walk to parklane there eat tou hua.. Heex.. Nice.. But tis time round is i din eat le.. Hahaha.. After tat.. We slowly walk to Cine le.. Onli left wif waiting for the rest to come nia..

Went back hm awhile to pass my daddy money.. Den rushed back to Cine again.. When i went back David reach there liaox le.. So onli left wif Jonathan n Jerlyn.. They came late abit.. Den Jerlyn din go to KBox wif us.. Cos all haven had dinner mahx.. So go foodcourt hav dinner b4 going up to sing lohx..

Sing sing sing till 11 lidat jiu go liaox le.. Cos the room onli till 11 nia.. Sianx.. Still haven sing enuf sia.. Den make our way to take train back hm le.. Pei Dumdum talk on her way hm.. Cos recently her hse there got a molester.. Den she scare.. :) U Dumdum.. No nd scare de okie.. Heex.. Reach hm liaox le but dunno y cant slp.. Talk on fone for quite some time b4 i went to slp bahx.. Tml still gotta go for the NATAS travel fare.. Tired..

(●̮̮̃•̃) New Year New Beginning (●̮̮̃•̃).

Thursday, September 28, 2006Y

6:38 PM

Boo Boo.. So sianx.. Currently at zip hse.. Dunno wat to do so come his hse use com lohx.. Haha.. Woke up in the morning.. Den went to polyclinic to c doc for my cough flu n fever.. Wasted sia.. Cos today already on mc liaox le.. Haix.. Den went back to camp to endorse my mc..

Went back to unit to settle some of my stuffs.. Had a hard time finding one of my officer.. Dunno where the hell he go oso.. Cos gotta change my duty for tml.. Cos on mc mahx.. Den after tat went to canteen to eat.. After tat recieve a msg from Dumdum.. Den say i bluff her.. Dot dot dot.. Wat i do sia.. Haix.. Dunno bahx.. Now it all up to her to c if she believes wat i say bahx.. If she dun i oso cant do anything mahx.. Haix..

[[Added In For Previous Post]]
Wanted to say tis long ago le.. But everytime oso keep on forget to say.. Now tat i rember it so im wanna say it.. Haix.. Finally after so long le.. I still jus cant rly find someone hu i can rly trust.. Haix.. Nvm abt tat bahx.. :) Its okie.. Bcos i hav learn tat nobody can be trusted.. No even some of my close frens bahx.. Haix.. Jus simply no one can be trusted.. Meaning??? I dun trust anyone else other den myself from now onwards.. Tats it.. Short n simple.. Heex.. :) Wait till i can find someone else hu seems able to be trusted den say bahx.. Haha.. Feeling abit moodless now.. Dun feel like blogging anymore oso le.. Gonez..

(●̮̮̃•̃) New Year New Beginning (●̮̮̃•̃).

10:17 AM

Sianx again.. Woke up at 730 today.. So early sia.. Tired.. Called Dumdum.. But she nv pick up.. Den wait for awhile more c she got reply or cal back anot.. But tis piggy slp till 12 lidat den wake up.. Haha..

Went to my hse there de polyclinic to remove the stitches.. Waited for the stupid doc for some time b4 i went in.. Den remove all the 7 stitches le.. But dunno y the wound still keep bleeding sia.. Boo.. Den the doc put plaster on it.. N oso got one more week den mc.. Haha.. So shiok sia.. Woots..

Went to my aunty shop to eat n waited for Dumdum.. Got rain for awhile but den after tat jiu stop liaox le.. Talk to Dumdum fone but got abit aguement.. But after tat jiu okie le.. My fault anyway.. Dunno y tis few days i oways feel veri pek chey.. Haix.. Nvm den.. Its all over le..

Mit Dumdum at abt 2 lidat at Ps.. Den roy came after awhile.. Watch Miami Vice.. The whole movie 2hr+ lohx.. Sit till my pigu oso pain liaox.. Heex.. But nvm lahx.. Cos the show is rly nice.. Woots.. If haven go c den better dun miss it.. Lolx.. Den Dumdum after the movie keep say bang bang head shot.. Haha.. So funny..

Walk over to Ms.. Eat duck rice there den went over to esplanade there slack le.. Cos veri long nv go there sit sit liaox le.. Haha.. Tink rly old liaox le bahx.. Last time use to walk from Ms to Ps oso no kick de.. But today lidat walk feel veri tired wor.. Sit till abt 8+ lidat den jiu go hm le.. Pei Dumdum took train till tamp den i jiu went hm le..

On the way hm dunno y head started feeling giddy le.. Den jiu sit down there motionless liaox.. Dun feel like moving oso.. Reach hm bath le come out talk to Jonathan on fone till abt 1 bahx.. Feeling so xin ku lohx.. Both nose oso block sia.. Den canot breathe properly oso.. Wanna slp oso canot slp sia.. Den abt 1+ Dumdum cal mi den we talk till 3+ lidat bahx.. But still cant slp.. Den at there fa dai till abt 5 lidat den onli i fall aslp..

Hmmm.. When i got hm today.. Dunno wat happen oso.. Suddenly alot of questions jus came up to my mind.. Haix.. Wat am i doing now? Is it rite or is it wrong? I dunno.. Y cant i jus live like anyone else? Y cant i jus forget everything den continue my life? I oso dunno.. I do rly care but i cant show it.. N i oso dunno how to show it.. I feel veri bad now.. I jus cant tink now.. So lost.. I seem to be like standing on a pool of quick sand n its slowly sucking my life out from mi..

[[Wo Zhi Dao Ni Wo Dou Mei You Cuo.. Zhi Shi Wang Le Zhe Me Tui Hou.. Xin Shi Dan Dan Gei De Cheng Nuo.. Que Bei Shi Jian Pu Le Kong.. Wo Zhi Dao Wo Men Dou Mei You Cuo.. Zhi Shi Fang Shou Hui Bi Jiao Hao Guo..Zui Mei De Ai Qing.. Hui Gei Ni Dai Qu..]]

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Wednesday, September 27, 2006Y

12:48 AM

Another boring day.. Haiz.. Sianx.. The stupid wound still pain sia.. :( Rotting at hm today again.. Got no where to go oso.. Den feeling sick oso le.. So bo bian gotta stay at hm.. Oso woke up at ard afternoon lidat bahx.. Den went to hav lunch lohx..

After tat c the time still early den jiu went over to cityhall mit zip.. But dunno y suddenly so many ppl come oso.. Pei them go to suntec awhile jiu left for my aunty hse le.. Eat the same ting i had ytd.. Yucks.. Not nice de lohx.. Sianx.. But no choice but hav to eat.. Oso went hm at abt 9+ lidat bahx.. Reach hm le den jiu bath n watch tv.. Den chat on fone wif Dumdum n david till abt 12+ jiu went to slp liaox le..

Gotta go remove the stitches tml morning.. Haha.. Finally can remove it liaox sia.. So happy.. Cant wait to get it remove.. Heex..

(●̮̮̃•̃) New Year New Beginning (●̮̮̃•̃).

Monday, September 25, 2006Y

11:43 PM

Bored bored bored.. So damn bored.. Dunno y oso.. Woke up in the afternoon today.. Woots.. Slp veri long sia.. Haha.. Den dunno wat to do liaox le.. Heex.. Watched tv for the whole day den after tat evening mit zip awhile b4 i went to my aunty hse for dinner..

Reach my aunty hse den started eating liaox le.. Eat n eat n eat.. Like one pig lidat.. Den sit down talk awhile lohx.. Talk till abt 9+ lidat jiu went off liaox le.. Sianx.. Gotta take a stupid train hm alone.. So damn lohx.. Reach hm at abt 10+ going 11 lidat lohx.. Den bath n talk on fone awhile jiu try go slp liaox le.. Ciaox..

(●̮̮̃•̃) New Year New Beginning (●̮̮̃•̃).

Sunday, September 24, 2006Y

3:59 PM

Okie.. Wat shld i say on lehx.. Been tinking alot ytd nite.. Tinking abt wats rite & wats wrong.. But i still jus dunno wat im doing is actually rite or wrong lohx.. Haix.. Life so troublesome.. But i got to live it anyway.. So its time i find some way to solve my tings le bahx.. :)

Today again din rly feel like going out.. But i oso dun wanna stay at hm.. Soend up i still went out lohx.. Jonathan went to Ps first.. Den i mit Dumdum @ abt 12 bahx i tink.. Haha.. Den went over to the arcade.. Go in c c den jiu go out le.. Wanted to eat MOS Burger.. But eberytime oso no place for mi to sit de lohx.. So damn suay.. Den went to eat BK..

After eating.. Dunno where to go next mahx.. So ended up at PC Bunk again liaox.. Seems so no life rite.. Keep on going to the same old place.. No wonder no one will wanna go out wif mi bahx.. :) Wanted to watch Miami Vice today de.. But still waiting for jerlyn to come.. Den Dumdum oso gotta go hm early to hav dinner wif her family.. Den too bad lohx.. Gus gotta wait till next time den can watch le bahx.. But hope not like forbidden siren lidat lohx.. Wait n wait n wait till the show oso no more liaox le.. Bo bian lohx.. Wait for the vcd to come out le den go buy n c bahx..

Lalala.. Dunno wat im gonna do again later.. Sianx.. Hmm.. Anyway.. Jus take note of tis 2 songs.. Lee Jiu Zhe de Jie Tuo & Jay de Tui Huo.. Super nice lohx.. Woot.. Lalala.. Gonna stop blogging liaox le bahx.. If not got ppl wanna say i writing essay liaox le lohx.. Ciaox..

(●̮̮̃•̃) New Year New Beginning (●̮̮̃•̃).

2:19 AM

Lalala.. Im so bored today.. No mood to do anything.. Dunno y.. Jus feel veri tired n cant be bothered le bahx.. Almosteveryone backed out last min.. Nvm bahx.. Since ppl are lidat den i oso dun wanna force them.. Its all up to them..

Work whole day.. Started work @ abt 7 lidat.. Drive forklift all the way.. Cos my wound still hurt den cant carry heavy tings.. Finish the first container @ abt 10+ bahx.. Den after tat my boss ask mi to help deliver goods lohx.. Haha.. Den drive the stupid big lorry to 3 places.. Reach back work place @ abt 3+ bahx..

Finally the 2nd container came liaox le.. Faster work on it lohx.. Haix.. Cos of tis stupid container i dun nd to go kbox liaox le.. All bcos of tis container.. Idiot.. Was all prepare to go enjoy liaox lohx.. Arghh.. Nvm bout it le.. No ones coming out.. Finish tis damn bloody container nearly 5.. Den dun rly feel like going hm mahx.. So i stay over & help out lohx.. End up i work work work till nearly 10 den reach hm..

Back hm eat & bathe.. Dunno y veri irritated.. Somemore the baby still keep on at there cry.. I buay ta han den i take ear piece plug in my ear n watch tv.. Stupid ghost movie.. Yi dian duo bu pa ren de.. Make mi feel like laughing onli.. Dunno wat the hell is wrong wif mi bahx.. Chat wif Jonathan & Yi Qi on fone till abt 2 jiu hang up liaox le.. Dun feel like talking.. Oso late le bahx.. Tink going off liaox le.. Bye..

(●̮̮̃•̃) New Year New Beginning (●̮̮̃•̃).

Friday, September 22, 2006Y

11:23 PM

Din rly feel like coming out today wor.. Cos wanna save money for tml kbox.. But end up oso went out.. Cos Ivan ask us out to play pool.. Haha.. Den mit Dumdum @ PS there lohx.. B4 i go down saw my fren.. Kana beaten up till dunno like wat sia.. Help him awhile den i cabbed down to Ps le.. By the time i reach they all oso reach le..

Cant rly play pool bahx.. Cos the wound still veri pain den i dun dare to stretch myself.. C them play lohx.. Den after tat went to PC Bunk again.. Haha.. Played Audition.. So fun sia.. Heex.. Den abt 8 lidat go up smoke liaox le den jiu go hm liaox le.. Dunno y i dun feel rly good bahx.. Dunno wats up wif mi again.. Nvm bahx.. Dun wish to tink abt it liaox le..

Cant wait for tml kbox sia.. But cfm will veri tired de.. Cos gotta work in the morning.. Tink will work till abt 1 or 2 bahx.. Heex..

(●̮̮̃•̃) New Year New Beginning (●̮̮̃•̃).

Thursday, September 21, 2006Y

11:43 PM

Hmmm.. Today mit Dumdum @ Ps.. Nearly cant wake up lohx.. Haha.. Went to kia kia awhile.. Den after tat bought tickets for Haunted Apartment.. Watched liaox le den mit Jonathan.. Dunno wat to do mahx.. Den end up walk to PC Bunk there lohx.. Sit down & play pc.. Haha.. Oso had our dinner here.. Ate maggi.. Woots.. My daddy dun let mi eat at hm den i eat outside lohx..

Heex.. Den pei Dumdum back to Tamp.. On my way back hm time feel veri seh lohx.. Tink is cos of the medicine i ate bahx.. Make my head feel so giddy sia.. Machiam wanna faint lidat de.. After tat fell aslp on the train.. Lucky my fren cal mi.. If not i cfm will miss my stop..

Alight @ Redhill.. Den my fren cal again.. Ask mi check for some number.. Den i check check nv c where i go den bang onto the pillar.. So paiseh sia.. Alot of ppl c mi bang into it lohx.. Lalala.. Den i faster walk away liaox le.. Reach hm bathe den after tat talk on fone.. Going to slp soon liaox le bahx.. Hope tonite can slp liaox le..

(●̮̮̃•̃) New Year New Beginning (●̮̮̃•̃).

2:15 AM

Sianx.. Today going for my operation liaox le.. Dunno y feel veri sianx.. Veri tired.. Dun feel like going for it.. But no choice but gotta go.. Cos promised Dumdum liaox le.. & oso miting her at outram b4 my operation.. Went to eat duck rice at the hawker center beside outram park mrt.. But onli Jonathan & Dumdum eat onli.. Cos i cant eat.. Veri hungry lohx.. Onli cant c them eat nia..

Went over to the hospital.. But my daddy still haven reach.. Den the nurse cal for mi liaox le.. When in.. Changed le.. Den waiting for my daddy to sign dunnno wat paper b4 i can start my op..
Lie on the operation table motionless for abt 1hr bahx.. Sianx.. So pain lohx.. Den the stupid doc still say maybe he cut too deep scare kana the lungs den ask mi go for x-ray.. Lucky nth happen if not im sure gonna k him..

Ate at Swensen after tat.. Den Dumdum jiu left liaox le.. Left mi n jonathan nth to do.. So we both proceed hm le lohx.. Had a hard time trying to slp sia.. Till now still rolling all over.. Haix..

(●̮̮̃•̃) New Year New Beginning (●̮̮̃•̃).

Sunday, September 17, 2006Y

9:25 PM

Sianx sianx sianx.. Everyday is so sianx.. Haix.. Ytd went to sentosa wif dumdum , des , val , roy.. Go to the last time tat spot n put down tings le.. But too bad there got event den canot play ball.. So we shift place to another spot lohx.. End up shift to the other side le den so damn hot lohx.. Bth sia.. Played monkey den after tat ard 5+ jiu leave le.. B4 we left jiu started to rain liaox le..

Mit jonathan at harbourfront mrt.. Des & val went off first.. Den the rest of us when for dinner at the hawker center.. After which roy left.. Followed by dumdum.. Den mi & jonathan proceed to Plaza Sing.. C him play MT.. Den rember tat my cigg wif dumdum.. Haha.. But end up she came over to PS to pass mi.. Reach hm abt 11+ bahx.. Bath , talk , watch tv den jiu slp liaox le..

Suppose to wake up early today to go my aunty hse de.. But the weather too cooling le.. Den slp till abt 1 lidat den wake up.. Sianx.. Took a 1hr 30mins de bus to her hse.. Den went up onli jiu got ppl give stupid face liaox le.. If not for my aunty den i wont even step into the hse lohx.. Ate lunch there.. Talk wif my cousin awhile jiu left le.. Den wonder ard hougang.. But still ended up going to jonathan hse.. :x

Going to go hm soon le bahx.. Cos tml gotta go back camp.. Hope i can wake up tml to go back camp bahx.. If not gonna kana k liaox le.. Haha.. :x Ciaoz..

(●̮̮̃•̃) New Year New Beginning (●̮̮̃•̃).

Wednesday, September 13, 2006Y

9:23 PM

lalala.. Bored bored bored.. Woke up late almost everyday sia.. Den din rly go back camp for quite some time le bahx.. Sianx.. Oso dun feel like going back too.. Haha..

Today went out alone to walk walk.. Den walk to ps to collect my contact lens.. Cost mi a bomb sia.. For 1 yr supply cos mi abt 200 lohx.. Okie lahx.. Can say quite cheap le bahx.. Cos lazy every month buy mahx.. Haha..

Mit zip at Sim Lim abt 6.. Den collect a com for our fren.. Went to zip hse n configure it.. Stupid com so cheap still got SATA somemore.. Haha.. Nvm.. Wait till my com comes.. Woot.. :x Went for dinner.. Ate sweet & sour pork rice.. Quite nice lahx.. Den went up his hse slack awhile jiu going hm le.. Cos tml die die oso got to go back camp le.. If not later kana f liaox.. Sianx.. Cfm rot whole day de lohx.. Nvm.. Can slp jiu hao le.. :x Going sentosa tis sunday i tink.. Hope more ppl will come bahx.. More ppl = more fun.. :x

Haix.. 7 more days jiu shi my op date le.. Dun rly feel like going lehx.. Dunno y oso.. Maybe scare pain bahx.. Haha.. Den oso dunno hu is coming n hu is not.. Dun wanna trouble ppl to come oso.. Op is at 230.. But nd to reach there by 1.. C how tings goes bahx..

(●̮̮̃•̃) New Year New Beginning (●̮̮̃•̃).

Sunday, September 10, 2006Y

8:10 PM

Lalala.. Being missing for quite awhile bahx.. Something happen.. But i dun wish to talk abt it anyway.. Wont die anyway.. So theres nth for mi to talk abt bahx.. Haha..

Finally i noe & understands everything le bahx.. Its mi alone tinking too much from the start bahx.. Like u said u din give mi any hopes.. All was my own tinking from the beginning.. Tats all i can say bahx.. :( Anyway i will be alrite bahx.. Dun wish to tink or talk abt it anymore.. The more i talk or the more i tink makes mi feel miserable..

Updates on mi is i will be having my operation tis 20th bahx.. Hope everyting will be fine bahx.. Dun wanna tink abt its oso..

Feeling so not myself nowadays.. Dunno y.. Dun wish to noe y oso.. Maybe someone someday can tell mi wat is happening bahx.. Gonez..

(●̮̮̃•̃) New Year New Beginning (●̮̮̃•̃).