Monday, April 30, 2007Y
2:14 AM
erm.. actually din wanna log today de.. cos i dunno wat to blog abt.. but since baby wans mi to log den i jiu blog lohx.. heex.. finally got a com to use liaox le.. which is baby de lappy.. she borrow mi.. weets.. thks baby..left baby hse last nite at ard 9+ bahx.. den went to airport wif jonathan n joseph.. watch the planes came in n out while waiting for joseph to come.. was so damn moody ytd lahx.. din talk much wif them oso.. after he reach we went to eat at popeye.. den walk ard for awhile after tat..
took bus 36 to town.. was the last bus le.. onli got abit of ppl.. was so cold lohx.. den fall aslp in the bus.. reach town to change NR back de.. but jonathan say its late le so we jiu took cab hm lohx.. been real long since tat im in town at the nite.. jus like the past.. its still so crowded.. but lots of interesting place hav all close down le.. haix..
reach hm bathe n change.. cal baby to talk for awhile.. n from wat i gus.. most of our problems are cleared le bahx.. i rly hope so.. talking abt the tings tat happen.. i will jus feel uncomfortable.. dunno y oso.. haix.. its jus seems like im to the point where i already i be wif out her by my side le.. she hav become part of my life le.. jus rly cant bear to lose her at all.. so pls nv leave mi hao mahx baby?? still rember our promises?? i do hope tat they are still valid..
n today was quite a good day for mi oso bahx.. had enuf of slp n everything.. woke up ard 12+ 1 lidat.. den help my daddy do some tings.. left hm ard 2 for baby hse.. took out my hard disk n graphic card.. tink im gonna lets her use them bahx.. anyway their of no use to mi now.. haha.. reach le jiu start to do le.. jonathan came ard 6 lidat bahx.. plan to go airport again after tat de.. but din manage to go.. cos by the time we finish our dinner n ting is already 8+ le.. n plus we were sitting there playing game.. lol.. end up we left baby hse at ard 10 lidat..
took us to interchange den pei him go eat.. cos he din hav his dinner yet.. after we board the train.. jeffery cal him.. so we jiu drop off at tanah merah n waited for him to come.. he send mi hm first.. dunno y when i open my door n saw my daddy i was shock.. haha.. i tot he was working sia.. forget tat its sunday today.. lolx.. den jiu go bathe n set up the lappy le.. so now i finally hav a com to use at hm le.. den jiu wont be so bored le bahx.. heex.. thks baby alot..
gus im jus gonna blog till here bahx.. gonna end it n go slp le..told baby i will slp early de.. den its quite late now le.. so i shld keep to my promise n go slp early.. so gotta go now.. ciaox..
Saturday, April 28, 2007Y
8:08 PM
haix.. back to blog abit abt wat happen for tis whole week bahx.. din enjoy my week at all.. i dunno y oso.. jus tat im feeling damn no mood nowadays bahx.. the feeling of loneliness, fear came back once again.. its seems to be always hunting mi.. i jus cant seem to enjoy my good time for long man..monday woke up ard 11 lidat bahx.. den mit my frens at ard 2 lidat to go do tattoo.. actually not say do bahx.. is jus touchup onli.. den was suppose to mit baby after her sch for dinner de.. but end up oso nv mit.. cos she says she is lazy to mit.. was feeling quite disappointed lahx.. but wat to do.. so jiu went back hm after tat lohx..
wat happen on tuesday i jiu dun rly rember liaox le.. onli rember i i pack my stuffs for camp den jiu mit zip to go tamp mit baby for dinner at bedok.. eat stingray.. xl n des was oso there.. something real cute happen.. but gus im not gonna say it out here bahx.. den pei baby to interchange den i jiu go back camp le..
den for the following few days was all training n training n training.. like as if we aint human lidat.. but wat to do.. lan lan suck thumb lohx.. cos the sgt mahx.. den jiu like damn super big fuck lohx.. jus dun till one day i cant take it den tink jiu tats too bad le bahx.. i dunno wat i will do.. n i oso dun dare to tink of wat i will do.. so lets jus keep it a secret for the moment bahx.. wait till the time comes jiu will noe le..
was suppose to bookout last nite de.. told baby tat i will mit her after my camp n her sch to go sim lim get his bro com.. den last min they told mi tat i will be doing guard duty.. its like wat the fuck lohx.. out of so many ppl they dun wanna choose they wanna choose mi.. kaox.. i rly got nth to say sia.. at first told mi tat i wil hav no more duties for tis month den now lidat.. fuck SAF big time..
bookout ard 8+ tis morning.. took bus to tamp interchange den change 291 to prime there.. cos wanna buy breakfast for baby n her bro.. bought chwee kuey n chee chong fun for them.. reach baby hse le..but baby was still feeling slpy.. took some time den manage to wake her up.. but end up the first ting she go to was to her com.. den jiu sit n play game.. actually i wont be so pissed off de.. but i jus kinda dun like it lahx.. i dunno how to explain it oso.. am i in the wrong to wan her to hav her breakfast first b4 doing anything else anot wor.. haix..
left her hse ard 12 lidat bahx i tink.. not sure.. nv c time.. den jiu head for sim lim.. was feeling better by den le.. den took some time to do the com n we took a cab back ard 4 lidat.. reach her hse rest awhile jiu start fix le.. deb baby oso jiu start playing game again le.. i dun mind her playing game.. cos she dunno much n oso cant help us much.. but den the part when i hate it most is when im talking to her n she is jus concentrate on playing her game.. is like as if im totally not there sia.. haix.. i dunno wat to say lahx..
i noe u will read my blog.. hope u wont be angry abt mi saying our own tings out jus like tat.. but tis is the onli place i can let myself out the most.. sometimes i will jus tink.. do i rly mean a ting to u anot.. or am i jus a someone normal to u.. im sorry to hav tink lidat.. but wat im saying now is rly wat i feeling.. i rember we once promise each other tat there will be no secrets between usde rite?? do u still rember it?? its not tat i dun trust u or i dun hav the confidence in u.. but its sometimes the tings tat u do tat make mi feels tis way.. i jus dunno y i will lidat oso lahx.. of all the tings tat happens.. i seem to onli care abt our relationship.. there is nth else much i will care abt liaox le..
haix.. tink tats all i will say here bahx.. there is still lots of tings i wanna say n lots of qns i wanna ask.. but im not gonna say it out here.. its jus tings between mi n u.. n i choose to remain silent.. whether for now or forever.. i dunno.. all i noe my is im so messed up now.. bwg liaox.. ciaox..
Sunday, April 22, 2007Y
6:44 PM
o.oim wandering if there is still anyone viewing anot wor.. haha.. so long nv update liaox le sia.. almost a month since my last post liaox le.. hehe.. but dun tink tat i will say everything bahx.. cos too long liaox le sia.. alot of tings i oso forget liaox lohx.. so i will jus update on anit bahx..
had a week out field training 2 weeks ago..quite siong lohx.. chiong till like a dog lidat sia.. den everyday oso onli got abit rest nia.. can die lohx.. we are human sia.. not robot lehx.. but lucky its over le.. haha.. though its over but we still cant book out.. cos its on a monday.. had to wait till friday den can come out..
now tat its finally weekend le.. haha.. so shiok sia.. lolx.. had been out since friday.. actually suppose to mit baby on friday de.. but end up i book out late.. so jiu nv mit liaox le.. mit up wif baby on sat.. she came to my hse mit mi.. den we jiu went to take our contact lens.. den from there we jiu go ms watch the reaping.. quite a nice show..
took train to batok to mit jonathan to take baby's clothes n hav dinner.. but during dinner time something happen which make mi totally lost my appetite.. so end up i din eat much den jiu went off liaox le.. send baby hm.. but while on my way hm everything was clear le lahx.. so i tink its settled le bahx.. dunno y.. i wasnt feeling angry or wat.. okie.. or maybe i was angry.. i dunno.. but i feel more disappointed n sad rather den angry..
but i still choose to trust n listen to wat is happening.. i dunno wat i was tinking oso bahx.. all i noe was tat i kept quiet for the whole day n din wanna talk much..
woke up early tis morning to go pray.. finish at abt 11+ lidat bahx.. den went back hm to wait for baby n jonathan.. mit jonathan first as baby was still slping at hm.. sms her oso nv reply de.. den had some misunderstanding oso.. but after awhile jiu okie liaox le.. but tink she is rly tired bahx.. though she din say it out.. cos if im not wrong she had been staying up till veri late for the past few days to play game.. am i rite or am i wrong??
so tink i will jus stop here bahx.. dunno n dun feel like doing anything again liaox le.. i dunno wats happening to mi oso.. jus dun hav the mood to do anything.. rwar.. nvm.. ciaox..