woke up quite late again today.. ard 12 lidat bahx.. haha.. so nice to slp sia.. heex.. den wake up jiu watch show liaox le.. sms baby for awhile den she jiu go do her ting liaox le.. dun wan disturb her doing work oso lahx..
n now its abt 320 le.. almost time for mi to go back to camp oso liaox le.. feel abit sian lahx.. but gus tis week is still okie bahx.. cos i wont be going out field tis week.. wahahaha.. so tink its will be easy for mi to pass tis week.. lol..
so yea.. gus there is nth much for mi to do oso le bahx.. gonna wait for time to pass den jiu go back camp liaox le.. n oso wait for time to reach nite den jiu can cal baby talk liaox le.. yay.. im loving it.. keke..
ciaox..
ytd nite cal baby n talk to her.. after she went to slp le den i go in irc chat awhile den jiu oso go slp liaox le.. cos feeling tired.. n i slp all the way till tis afternoon den wake up.. haha.. the weather was too good for slping liaox le lahx.. canot blame mi oso.. lol..
actually tot of miting baby today cos i cook porridge n wanna bring down for her to eat.. but gus she was busy bahx.. so din hav much time to reply mi or sms mi.. so jiu nv mit liaox le.. end up i alone at hm eating i ownself cook de porridge.. haha.. so sad hor.. was watching hua yang for the whole day.. wanted to watch for quite some time le.. but oways oso busy so jiu tu till now den watch.. was a veri nice show lahx.. so funny sia.. some part was veri touching oso.. heex..
jus now cal baby n talk after she finish playing game.. at first cal her she din pick up.. so tot she was slping liaox jiu stop calling liaox le.. but after tat she cal back when she c the sms.. so sweet can.. haha.. love ya lots.. now tats she is slping.. gus im oso gonna go slp soon le bahx.. jus gonna watch finish the last episode den jiu go slp liaox le.. heex..
n yea.. tml evening i jiu will hav to book in back to camp again liaox le.. but still okie lahx.. count myself lucky oso.. dun hav to take part in the full troop exercise.. cos of my fall last sat.. so yea.. gus tis week will be quite okie bahx.. n tats all for now le.. gonna go continue watch my show n den go slp liaox.. bye bye.. :)
was abt to go back hm ytd nite when i slip n fall.. thus hittng my head n had a short black out.. was sent to the hospital.. de went into the observation ward.. wasdischarge at ard 1 last nite.. den the medics from my camp came to fetch mi back to camp.. slp in came tilltis morning den i book out.. cos was veri last nite when i was discharge so they din wan mi to go back alone at tat hr.. n yea.. was feeling better liaox le.. n no worries to those hu were worried..
reach hm tis morning jiu msn baby le.. but got no replies from her n gus she was still slping bahx.. n yea.. she rly was still slping.. haha.. actually wanted go cycling de.. but was raining.. so jiu decided to go cityhall there slack slack n watch movie.. brought 2 jacket out oso.. one from mi n the other for my baby.. cos will be watching movie scare later she cold cold mahx.. heex..
mit baby ard 130 lidat at cityhall.. was afew mins late though.. cos i miss a bus.. heex.. den after tat we jiu slowly made our way thru citylink to ms le.. went to had duck rice at the food court there..n its nice lohx.. tink even if i eat everyday i oso wont get sick of it de.. haha.. finish our food n off we went to gv le.. watch alone.. i din noe its was a thai or korean show sia.. i keep on tinking tat it was a english show.. haha..
but owell.. its still quite a nice show to watch bahx.. haha.. but keep coughing in the cinema.. so paiseh sia.. like disturbing ppl watching show lidat.. lol.. went over to esplanade there to slack for awhile.. sit beside the sea.. its been long since we slack n chat at there le rite baby?? heex.. i miss those days sia.. jus sitting there looking ard slacking n chatting.. i will find more time to pei ni more de k.. den we jiu can hav more time doing ting tat we use to do in the past le..
left the area ard 5 lidat.. den send baby hm by train.. although it until tamp onli.. but i gus baby will still appreciate it de bahx.. heex.. n yea.. i did enjoy myself today.. hope u do enjoy urself today out wif mi k.. hugs.. n now tat i hav got hm.. gus i will jus wait for dinner den maybe after tat chat awhile wif baby den jiu go watch tv or slack ard bahx.. till its time for mi to cal baby to talk tonite.. heex.. so yea.. tats all liaox le bahx.. will be back for updates soon its there is more..
bye.. :)
woke up in the morning to wake baby up.. den jiu go back slp awhile.. till she sms mi tat she has left hm den i wake up.. after tat was sms-ing wif baby.. heex.. den when she reach office she told mi to go back rest.. n there i go.. flat on bed again.. lol.. such a pig sia.. haha..
slp all the way till ard 10+ i tink.. its when baby sms mi den i wake up.. if not dunno i will slp till wat time liaox le.. haha.. den prep n slack awhile jiu left hm le.. went over to my aunty place to take some tings hm.. den after mit baby at her office there for lunch.. i din eat though.. jus watch as she eats.. its so sweet to watch someone u love eating jus rite in front of u..
was coughing like hell in the afternoon.. dunno when will my cough gets better sia.. its been almost 3 weeks le.. n its still as bad.. sianx.. went back hm after baby go back office.. den jiu slack at hm all the way liaox le.. suppose to mit baby after work to go out de.. but baby say i was not feeling so i stay at hm lohx.. was feeling so sianx at first lahx.. cos i rly wanna go out.. but i noe she meant well for mi.. so i jiu guai guai ting hua lohx.. n stay at hm to rest..
she now back at hm n playing game liaox le.. n yea.. today was her game day.. so i wont disturb her bahx.. tink will jus cal her n talk awhile den jiu go slp le.. n let her continue wif her game.. n as usual tml there will be ndp for mi.. n its the preview somemore.. so if any of u c mi.. pls dun say its mi.. its so ma lu can.. haha..
ciaox..
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每一夜 闭上眼睛 我看到了恶梦你微笑 但是旁边的人不是我天空切开一道裂缝直接割到我心中不想装作脆弱 也不想爱得懦弱 只是我非常爱你 不想失去你难道我没有权利 说我不愿意你给了他的吻 虽然只有余温可知道我多渴望抓住你的心
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每一夜 闭上眼睛 我看到了恶梦你微笑 但是旁边的人不是我天空切开一道裂缝直接割到我心中不想装作脆弱 也不想爱得懦弱
只是我非常爱你 不想失去你难道我没有权利 说我不愿意 HO-OH你给了他的吻 虽然只有余温可知道我多渴望抓住 你的心
我知道他很爱你 你怕他伤心我每天假装开心 害怕你离去可不可以任性 求求你不要去藏在我心里 最后一句 其实还爱你
可不可以任性 求求你不要去藏在我心里 最后一句其实还爱你
book in last sunday.. suppose to book in at 7 de.. but i cal my pc n told him tat i will book in late.. so yea.. i nook in at 8 tat nite.. cos was miting baby at tamp to pass her the ipod.. was staring into the air when she sudden poke mi from behind.. scare mi sia.. i tot wat happen.. haha.. den after tat pei her go ntuc my sweets.. den wait for bus tgt wif her n after i took my my to camp.. although she was still abit cold towards mi tat day.. but everything ended well wif out any problem.. :)
reach camp n slack awhile waiting for time to pass.. after tat cal baby n talk for awhile.. so happy tat she will be willing to talk to mi.. heex.. den when i wanna go slp le ask baby hong wo.. but she hong half way jiu stop liaox le.. nv finish everything de.. haha.. wanted to hav an early nite de.. but was coughing till so jialat tat i cant rly slp sia.. boo.. i hate it when im sick sia..
wake up so damn early the next day.. its as early as 330 in the morning lohx.. kaox.. feeling so damn slpy sia.. how i wish i can still be slping at tis hr.. which i would usually do when im at hm.. lol.. den move off from camp at 5.. was such a tough day lohx.. hav to walk wif everything on for abt 3km den after tat start attack.. but if the attack was on flat grd its still okie.. but its not lohx.. its on a slope sia.. ended everything at ard 2.. den by the time i reach camp already 3 lidat le.. faster go bathe n everything den jiu so slp liaox le.. n not forgeting tat i sms baby when i reach camp tat day so to let her noe tat im safe.. heex..
was feeling so damn slpy again the next day.. cos we gotta wake up at 7 in the morning.. stupid sia.. its less den 4 hrs of slp lohx.. den went down to eat breakfast n clean arms.. lucky tat day dun hav any siong de training.. if not will die sia.. haha.. but afternoon we get to slp for quite some time bahx.. ard 4 hrs?? lol.. din go c wat time i go slp oso.. jus lie flat when i c the bed.. haha.. was sms-ing wif baby while im resting oso..
suppose to cal baby n talk at 10 de.. but got dunno wat stupid talk to attend so i was late.. n i tink she oso wait till abit bu nai fan le bahx.. ;x haha.. so we talk for awhile onli.. keep on arguing wif each other thru the fone till she hang up.. n once again she hang up my cal.. was feeling so upset sia.. its been the 2nd time in a week.. but yea.. i dun blae her oso lahx.. maybe is rly im being too fan le bahx.. so yea.. din wanna quarrel again so i jus keep quiet again.. n gs everything is back to normal the next day..
was sms-ing wif baby.. n she keep blaming herself for the quarrels tat we hav recently.. baby.. dun tink so much le k.. u cant totally blame urself de.. its partly my fault oso mahx.. sayang okie.. dun lidat say urself anymore le k.. gus u r having a hard time in the company now tats y u will lidat bahx.. hopefully everything will be alrite again after u finish ur mp k.. hugs..
had a stupid game ytd.. going ard in camp shooting at different grps lohx.. was playing the stupid game.. make mi nd to clean my weapon again.. stupid sia.. went to report sick in the morning cos my cough hav been for weeks n im still not recovering.. n gus wat.. i was being poke again.. stupid doc oso.. everytime c mi oso wanna use needle poke mi 1 time.. he sux man..
n as for today.. din do anything much in the morning lahx.. jus eat breakfast n continue cleaning weapon lohx.. all the way till afternoon den we went to ecp for the ahm run.. was raining sia.. n they still wan us to run in the rain.. no wander no one can recover when they get sick.. den after tat jiu go back camp eat dinner n book out.. suppose to mit baby today oso de.. but due to mi booking out late so we jiu nv mit le.. dun wan let her wait again.. if not my ass is gonna be burn again.. ;x
so yea.. gus tats all for tis week le bahx.. got nth much to talk abt oso le.. n yea.. lastly.. mi n baby r okie le.. gus tings r slowly being okie le bahx.. had n talk jus now wif baby.. n yea.. we aint gonna hav anymore quarrels or fights le.. everything is gonna stop over here.. n the rest of it will be a brand new story le.. heex.. huggies baby.. <3 gonna mit her tml either during her lunch time or after she knock off bahx.. still waiting for her to cfm wif mi.. but yea.. no matter wat we will still mir up tml bahx..
n tats al now le.. gonna read abit blog den jiu go slp oso le.. nites..
sms n msn her ytd nite when i got hm.. but till now she still haven anyone of them.. haix.. someone jus tell mi wat shld i do.. i rly dunno.. i rly jus hope tat she wont ignore mi..
baby.. i dunno if u r ignoring mi or tat u din notice those msgs.. haix.. but i rly hope u will reply mi.. n im waiting for ur reply.. today i will be booking in at 7.. cos i hav got live firing tml.. n whether u wanna mit to get back ur ipod.. its up to u le bahx..
i dunno wat i can say le.. anyone wanna find mi sms or cal mi bahx..
*gones*
finally back hm after a tiring day.. n i feel tat today is the worse day i hav ever gone thru.. totally got no mood to do anything.. there arent any expression on my face either.. my frens are all saying im so lifeless.. like as if im a living dead.. i dunno y i will lidat too.. i dun wish to be lidat oso de.. but i jus cant control myself.. had been quiet for the whole day.. not talking to anyone at all.. even to my officers.. i oso nv ask them any qns when thry ask mi.. jus dunno wat to say n talk abt.. it jus aint myself..
due to mi being unable to slp last nite.. i tink over lots of tings last nite.. i can say almost everything.. all the way starting from the yr 2003.. when i get to noe irene.. till we stop contacting each other due to certain reason.. till i went in.. den i came out.. nth good has ever happen to mi till now.. except for the time when i get to noe u.. tings started to change for the better.. i started to realise was is the true meaning of living in tis world.. it aint abt fighting n killing one another anymore.. not like the past anymore.. n thus i started to change for the better too.. till now i hav been tyring my best to turn over a new leave..
was tinking for the whole nite.. till wat time i dunno.. until im having headache for the whole day.. im still tinking.. those happy moments we hav had tgt wif each other.. those bad times when we pull thru tgt.. time n time again u help mi n gave mi lots of support.. rly appreciate them alot.. n if wif out u.. the melvin today will nv be here.. i wont still be like the same like wat im in the past.. lots of ppl hav say i hav change alot.. its not like wat im in the past.. they would even say its a mircale tat someone can cos such a big change in mi in such a short time..
tinking of wat i say abt u last nite.. n tinking of wat u reply tis morning.. i feel tat i hav got no rites to make u change jus bcos of mi.. its being veri selfish of mi to do so.. i myself hav not done much for u too.. like wat u were saying.. i promise to quit smoking n change my temper.. but till now i hav not even fully do it.. n yea.. i agree wif wat u say.. but i hope u shld noe tat im already trying my best to change le.. i dun wanna break those promise i made to u.. i rember i once told u b4.. promises are made to be kept n not to be broken.. n im gonna keep to my words for tat.. i aint going to break any promises i made to u.. n i will nv ever do so.. wat i say i will do it.. but i jus nd more time.. quitting smoking aint veri easy.. n for my temper it aint easy too.. i hav been lidat for lots of yrs le.. so i will nd to take sometime b4 i can totally change everything..
i noe i hav wrong u ytd nite.. i shld not hav say u r playing game when i din even cfm tat u r.. but the feeling i had ytd was so sucky.. when u hang up my fone tat time.. i was jus lying on bed n jus wanna say good nite to u.. at first i din noe tat u hav hang up.. n i said good nite n keep calling out for u.. its onli when i find it so quiet tat i c my hp den i noe tat u hav hang up already.. i tried calling u back.. but u din pick up too.. n b4 u hang up u said u wanna go play game le.. tats y i will tink tat u hav gone to play game..
i noe audi is the onli entertainment for u now when im not ard wif u.. but at times i jus rly feel neglect.. i noe now i can hardly spend much time wif u anymore.. especially after i got post out from kranji.. i dun wan tis to happen too de.. but i rly got no choice n there is nth i can do abt it.. i noe its selfish of mi to ask u stop playing when i got time for u.. but all i wan was to spend more time wif u as much as i can to make up for those lost.. i hope u can understand wat im going thru now.. im not trying to control u or ur lifestyle.. jus try to imagine if u were mi n can hardly spend time wif mi.. but when u r free n im now addictted to playing game tat sometime i will get so engross into it.. thus making the time we hav tgt even lesser.. how will u feel if u were mi.. wat im meaning isnt saying tat u r in the wrong.. i dun blame u for becoming lidat.. jus wan u to noe how im feeling..
for those smses ting.. u shld noe wat im talking abt.. i noe tat calling all those name were jus play play onli.. n i trust tat u wont do mi wrong.. but its jus tat i get rly uncomfortable when i c it.. n i dun rly like the feeling of it.. i rember u said.. they are now like wat we r in the past.. ur close frens.. but i dunno y i jus dun like it when i c it.. tats y sometime my mood will turn from good to bad all of a sudden.. not tat im checking on u.. i dun like checking on ppl de.. its when sometimes i browse thru i n get to c.. like for example.. i believe tat baby oso wont like it if u c mi calling those name wif others de rite?? so its abt the same as how i will feel..
as for the rest.. its okie le.. i agree tat u did stick to our solution.. talks n games on alternate nite.. im veri happy tat u r willing to scarifice tat for mi.. it might be hard for u now.. so im not rushing u into anything.. u can slowly take ur time to adapt to it.. i wont mind abt it de.. i seriously do mean it.. although sometimes i still aint quite use to it when u keep play games.. but u shld noe after awhile i jiu will be okie le.. i too nd time to adapt to the changes.. i noe i cant oways keep tings like wat or how they r in the past.. so im trying my best now to adapt to new changes.. n i understand tat once tings started to change.. its veri hard for them to go back to wat they r like in the past anymore.. n from now onwards i will not try to change anything anymore.. i will jus follow wif the flow n adapt to it as much as i can..
n lastly of all.. i noe sometimes i talk i tend to sound unhappy when im talking.. i may haix or watever.. but i dun mean any bad de.. n after awhile i jiu will be okie le.. u shld noe tis.. on external i may seem strong.. but actually rite inside mi im jus as soft as a jelly.. how would i bear to do anything tat would hurt u.. everytime when i feel tat i hv done something tat hurt u i will feel veri bad.. jus like tis morning.. i noe tat i hav wrong u.. n till now im still feeling so bad abt myself.. i feel tat i hav not taken the effort to care for u enuf.. i feel being so selfish of myself.. i feel so useless to not understand u.. n up till now.. i hav nv lost any trust in u.. neither din i ever dun believe wat u told mi.. i do trust n believe each n every single ting u tell mi..
after all tis tat i hav said.. i hope u can n do understand wat im trying to say.. i might look bad n hav been bad in the past.. but i believe i can be good oso de.. n im willing to do any changes jus for the sake of u.. let us once again overcome all tis like wat we use to okie?? so i hope baby will take tis few days time to relax n rest urself n tink abt wat i hav said.. hopefully everything will be okie n back to normal soon bahx.. *prays tat everything will turn out fine* *prays hard*
n as for now.. im sure gonna miss my baby lots.. cos tml we wont be coming out anymore.. n maybe for the next whole week oso.. so yea.. hearts baby lots.. n im truefully sorry for everything ting tat i hav done tat has hurt u.. im sorry..
n as for her.. cal n sms were not replied till now.. msn oso no news at all.. gus she is happily playing her game rite now n enjoying it bahx.. i dunno.. shall not say much abt it.. i rember u told mi u will end ur game n go slp b4 3.. n now its already almost 3 le.. i shall wait for awhile more n c if u do keep ur words to mi anot.. or are u going to disappoint mi once again..
dun tink there is anything left for mi to say anymore.. im breatheless.. clueless.. wat shld i do?? where shld i go?? will the someone still be there for mi like b4?? everything has an end n has an finally ans.. wat will mine be??
jus now was the sms ting.. actually i din wanna talk much abt it de.. but tink its time i say something abt it le bahx.. its not been once or wat.. but its been for lots of time le lohx.. everytime when u playing game u jiu wont reply sms.. sometimes even cal oso nv pick up.. ya.. although u din reply my sms jus now but u did pick up my cal.. but can u jus put urself in my shoe lahx.. imagine u were mi n most of the time u sms mi when im playing game n i din reply u.. how would u feel??
i noe today its friday.. n ya.. i did say b4 friday u can play game.. but today was our talking day oso lehx.. n u keep ask mi wat time i wanna go slp.. i noe u wanna play game.. but wat time did i reach hm.. i reach hm almost 1130 lohx.. from the time i cal u till i finish blogging n was abt to go to bed till u kup my cal.. its onli abt 1 hr onli.. n out of the 1 hr.. u kept quiet most of the time..
i was jus walking to my bed.. n i jus haix den u jiu kup my cal.. is ur game rly so impt tat u cant even wait for a few mins more.. i rly dun understand tis at all.. y muz tis be happening over n over n over again.. hav u ever tink of how i will feel anot??
everyone is telling mi tat i hav treat u too good n i shld not treat u so good or else one day u will jus take mi for granted n i will regret.. but i choose not to believe in wat the others say.. i choose to believe in wat i believe.. i wan to prove them all wrong.. i believe tat being tgt we shld treat each other good n wif respect.. n even though when sometime i browse thru ur fone c some of those sms tat u had wif ur others frens in ur fone.. i oso keep quiet.. even when u told n promise mi u wont do tis tings again anymore.. n i hav been taking in all tis to myself.. cos i trust n believe tat u wont do mi any wrong.. the trust i hav in u.. baby pls dun ever break it.. pls..
for tis 8 mths.. hav i ever kup ur cal when u cal mi anot?? hav i nv reply anything of ur sms anot?? hav i ever cos of a game or something tat we oways hav arguement over it anot?? hav i ever been calling names wif other gals anot?? tis u shld ask urself abt it.. but in case if u dun noe.. i can clearly tell u tat i hav not.. im not trying to find fault wif u or wat.. i jus wanna let u noe how i feel.. n tis feeling is so damn sucky.. tink abt it baby.. if u tink there is anything tat i hav wrong u.. jus come tell mi..
i dunno y im saying all tis out tonite.. maybe i gus i shld sound off b4 tings get worse bahx.. i dunno if u feel it anot but i do feel tat all tis is rly causing too much in our relationship.. gus baby will be playing game rite now bahx.. i dunno if u will still hav the mood to play game anot.. but i can say tis totally spoil my good mood i had tis whole day.. n gus wat.. dun tink i will hav n good slp tonite once again.. shld try to go n rest now.. tml i still got a tough day to go thru..
*gones*
its been quite long since we celebrate our ani le.. cos was quite busy wif my camp tings.. but i din forget abt it oh.. ita oways on my mind.. n due to having off today.. so took tis chance to celebrate wif baby.. although its not veri grand or wat lahx.. but hope u will enjoy n like it..
watch invisible target.. was a nice show.. some parts of it was so touching sia.. its worth to watch.. den after movie went to had dinner.. suppose plan to eat at sakae de.. but baby dun wan so ended up eating at yoshinoya..
after dinner jiu took train n send baby back hm.. send her back till her hse.. been long since i send her hm lidat le.. rly miss those time.. especially those walks hm.. its so nice so sweet.. shall spend even more time wif u after i ord k.. hugs..
now finally reach hm le.. saw 2 gay on train.. rly so super gay lohx., more sissy den a gal sia.. omg.. den sms baby tell her.. but she din reply once again.. haix.. was abit upset bahx.. its not been the first time le wor.. i not saying its ur fault.. but jus hope tat u wont be so engross in the game.. n abt the a cash ting.. not dun wan let u buy.. its jus tat dun wan u waste so much on a game.. no point de mahx.. okie? hope u can understand wat im meaning.. n im not blaming u.. like wat u say.. u nd time to change.. so i shall give u more time n wait for tat day to come k..
n lastly.. happy 8th mths to baby again.. *hearts u lots* <3 cant be wif out u.. muackiex..
did nth much for tis whole weel too.. onli jus normal training in camp nia.. haha.. so good sia.. cos last min got ndp.. den out field cancel.. woots.. n of cos abt today.. left camp early in the morning n headed for padang.. did the so called singapore version of amazing race.. its so stupid can.. went ard doing so many stupid ting.. n im not the type tat seem to will do tis tings de lohx.. so its so bored for mi..
but still its okie bahx.. cos i was sms-ing baby while i go ard doing those stupid ting.. haha.. n yea.. as usual she reply awhile den jiu bu jian le.. not much sms from her oso de.. tink is cos she is busy bahx.. so din rly hav the time to reply mi.. so tink its still okie bahx..
finally everything ended at 6.. but still gotta go esplanade there eat n all.. so ended everything ard 9+.. sms baby.. n she took quite sometime to reply.. cos she was playing game.. everytime oso lidat de.. play game onli jiu like everything in her own world of game le.. bleahs..
reach hm at abt 1045.. den wash up n do everything le den came online.. msn n sms her.. but till now oso not a single reply from her yet.. cal her she oso din pick up.. haix.. the last sms from her was at 2205.. from den on jiu totally no news at all liaox.. dunno wat is she doing oso lahx.. but hope she better be slping by now n not playing game le.. if not.. baby u shld noe wat bahx.. as she is still online.. i dunno if she is still playing game or has she fallen aslp.. so i shall not say anything first.. shall jus wait n c.. dun tink i will be slping so early too.. so yea.. i hav got tons of time..
ciaox..
woke up ard 11 tis morning.. den jiu go bathe n prep n wait for baby le.. miting her 1 at cityhall.. but she was late.. cos her mummy bought breakfast for her le.. so yea.. she stay at hm n eat first den come out.. after she came.. we made our way to ms.. was tinking of eating sakae.. but she wans mi to save money so jiu nv le.. n her craving for duck rice was there.. so we end up eating duck rice.. lol..
after lunch went to take bus to to ps.. den go up arcade play a few games b4 we went in for our movies.. the show was quite okie lahx.. but its onli tat the ending was abit stupid though.. haha.. its like the show was film half way lidat.. gonna wait doe the next part to come out den i go watch again.. heex.. after movie went to foodcourt to eat.. suppose say to eat the curry chicken rice de.. but i was coughing.. so i give it a miss n baby too give it a miss jus cos of mi too.. thks baby.. promise to go eat wif u again the next time k.. *hugs*
n oso i jus hate sundays.. cos everytime mit awhile den jiu muz part again le.. was feeling abit emo jus now lahx.. but i jus keep it to myself.. tink baby can c it.. but yea.. we still ended tings quite well.. for now.. gonna miss baby lots again le.. hav to wait till friday den can c her again le bahx i tink.. hope she can mit mi on friday oh.. n now.. im jus waiting for her to finish blogging den i go read.. after tat jiu hav to go off liaox le..
as for wat happen ytd.. everything is okie le bahx.. n yea.. i was rite wor.. baby was angry wif wat i say.. but yea.. everything was settle ytd nite le.. so lets not talk abt it anymore liaox le.. hopefully there wont be anymore unhappy ting happening again.. :)
gonna logoff now n wait for baby to blog.. so yea.. for those hu caresabt mi.. do miss mi lots oh.. heex.. ciaox..
baby.. u told mi to wait for awhile.. u said awhile.. but till now.. i dun even hear anything from u.. maybe wat i say made u angry jus now bahx.. i dunno.. maybe i rly did.. i tried msn n sms u.. but u jus wont reply.. called u.. but u wont pick up too.. im so utterly disappointed wif myself.. maybe im being too irritating bahx.. but do u still rember abt wats going on tml.. we plan to watch movie tgt.. n i even book the tickets le.. all i wan was jus to cfm wat time n where we would mit anot.. it doesnt matter if we jus cfm tis n u continue talking wif ur frens.. n till now.. its 2 le.. there are still no sms msn or cals from u.. haix.. im such a useless bf..
but not matter wat.. i will still be waiting for u to cal.. even if u wont be calling.. i will still be waiting.. even if i wont get to slp a single bit tonite.. i will still continue waiting..
book in wednesday morning.. din do much for tis whole week though.. was quite a relax week bahx.. was feeling sick ytd.. so went to report sick.. got some medicine.. but its so nan chi lohx.. but yea.. i still got eat the medicine.. if not baby gonna be mad if she noe tat i din.. heex..
had nite off ytd.. tot will be miting baby for dinner.. but she is wif the gals.. plus its all gals there.. dunno im welcome anot oso.. so i jiu din go down le.. was so lonely ytd.. was all alone at tamp.. wandering abt for ard 3hrs plus b4 i went back to camp.. no one came to find mi.. n tink there was a little misunderstanding bahx.. as baby was on the way back.. she cal mi n ask mi where i am.. so i told her.. gus she was wondering if she wanna come down anot.. so i jiu told mi if dun wan jiu nvm lohx.. gus she misunderstand wat i was trying to say bahx.. plus my tone was low cos i dun rly hav voice le.. so yea.. hope u aint angry k..
as for today.. as usual lahx.. at marina there for ndp training.. had such a tiring day sia.. plus somemore today got so many sch kids there.. all running ard.. so scare tat i might knock into them.. den jiu jialat liaox le.. haha.. but everything still went on smoothly.. reach camp first ting jiu look at fone.. but was abit disappointed lahx.. not even a sms from baby.. den sms her n told her tat we talk when i reach hm..
now finally hm le.. msn her n ask her wanna talk now.. but she was on fone wif her fren.. i dunno hu.. ask she ard wat time she will finish n she say dunno.. haix.. im not angry over tat or wat.. jus tinking tat.. since now we already seldom hav much time to talk to each other le.. n plus somemore today was the day we shld talk on fone.. n she told mi she was talking to her fren but dunno till wat time.. haix.. its so disappointing to hear tat u noe.. since its so i tink jiu nvm bahx.. when u talk finish le den let mi noe lohx.. i shall now slowly wait for she reply bahx.. haix..
slp for the whole morning till abt 1230 when baby sms mi den i wake up.. too tired liaox le.. din slp well for all the past few nite.. so yea.. woke up n sms her for awhile den i jiu go bathe n wash up den jiu left hm le.. reach ps n its still early.. so jiu went up to arcade to play a few games of mt.. jus play awhile den baby jiu come liao le.. so i end soon after.. bought tickets for transformers..
went to hav lunch at yoshinoya.. was quite ex though.. but veri long nv bring her go eat good food le.. so its okie bahx.. den went to walk ard.. from b1 all the way till lvl 7.. having quite alot of time left b4 our show start.. so we jiu went into arcade to plat touchscreen.. almost time le den jiu go buy water n go in.. was surprise tat there was onli abt 10 ppl in the whole hall.. haha.. den so cold lohx.. baby jiu hao.. still got my jacket to cover her.. but she still shivered.. haha..
after the show den discover she got 2 miss cal from her office.. but when she sms back they say they nv cal.. hope everything will be okie for her at there bahx.. go over to pc bunk to find jonathan n joseph.. den decided to come over to my hse here for dinner.. eat curry rice.. was nice lohx.. so long nv eat liaox le.. its ex though.. but its still worth to eat..
after dinner pei her go wait for cab hm.. cos its quite late le n she still haven do her tings yet.. so yea.. after she went off i went to buy durians.. cos my daddy ask mi to buy for him.. reach back hm den jiu open n eat le.. but i din rly eat lahx.. cos too full liaox le.. left my daddy joanthan n joseph eating while im in the room use laptop.. haha..
baby cal mi ard 10 jus now.. den talk wif her till abt 11 lidat den she jiu hang up go slp le.. cos she gotta wake up early tml to go office.. nd to report early tml morning.. n gus im gonna slp soon too le bahx.. tml morning gotta wake up n go back camp oso.. den nd to wake her up at 615.. haha.. better wake up after i cal u hor.. if not sunday i spanko ur pigu wor.. lol..
tink everything is getting along fine for now bahx.. hope all tis will continue smoothly always.. n better still i hope everything will be back to wat we use to be after i ord.. so yea.. i gotta pray hard.. *prays* n gus tats all for today le.. wont be updating till when im back on sat.. so cya guys.. ciaox..
cal baby at 630 to wake her up.. den after tat jiu hang up le.. went back to lie on my bed.. tis time rd manage to fall aslp for awhile.. but was waken up by her sms again at 7+.. n once again im awake till now.. sms for awhile n we talk abt the ting again.. but disappointment nv fails to haunt mi.. but i gus im not gonna talk abt it anymore le bahx.. im seriously getting veri tired of tis le.. n im drying up already.. all tis has cause mi to be in a bad shape now.. n lucky im on off for tis few days..
since she said she will try her best to do it.. den we shall c how ting goes abt bahx.. i dun dare to put up high hopes for all tis anymore.. cos i dun wanna fall to my death again anymore.. but it doesnt mean tat i totally dun trust or believe u anymore.. so its up to u to prove it to mi bahx..
so lost so confused.. which way shld i go?? i dunno..
continue from the post i had jus now.. ever since jus now after we part from each other.. i got the same feeling as of the past few days.. the feeling of being lost n confused.. not noe-ing wat to do or wat shld i do.. was telling her everything while im on the bus to airport.. after reaching le i got totally no mood le.. was feeling abit hungry at first.. but was no longer hungry anymore after tat..
had a hard time trying to connect to the internet there too.. was reading my sent item on wat i send her.. den after tat read her blog.. i could feel the tears in my eyes already.. but i told myself to control.. not to let any tears flow down.. was feeling so xin ku can.. the feeling when u wanna cry but u cant cry..
after reading everything i kept quiet n start tinking.. till joseph gf came n we went over to popeye.. onli they eat.. i still jus cant eat.. was feeling so full.. all along i was tinking n tinking n tinking.. wat can i do to save tis?? wat can i do to help tis relationship?? how shld i do it?? wat ways are there for mi to choose?? will we be able to pull thru again tis time rd?? n lots of other qns.. i even tot of giving up.. but still i did not choose it.. cos i believe tat there cfm will be a way out for tis..
finally came out wif a solution.. sms told her abt it.. n she say okie.. but after tat jiu nv reply le.. i dunno if she has fallen aslp or is it tat she dun wanna reply.. will be waiting for her ans tml morning again.. she told mi sorry.. but its of no use le bahx.. saying sorry now wont change anything.. the fact of the impact cause will always be there now.. n i gus nth will be back like wat we use to hav in the past anymore le bahx.. i dunno oso..
i hav had enuf of tinking le.. till now im feeling headache in my head.. n seriously i getting abit tired of tis issue on gaming liaox le.. if tis solution oso cant do the trick den i rly dunno wat can le.. as for now.. there is nth much for mi to do anymore.. gus i will jus sit n relax chill till i feel slpy bahx.. but as for tml.. hope everything will be fine le..
ciaox..
as for today whole day.. can say nth much bahx.. but there are oso quite some tings too.. i dunno wat im talking abt too.. woke up in the morning den pei baby sms while she is in office.. cos scare tat she will be bored.. although i din slp much the nite b4.. i still try to tahan.. cos i noe tats one of the few chances i can spend to pei her for now..
left hm ard 1155 lidat.. cos was miting baby for lunch.. but when i reach there i cal n sms her but i jus cant get thru to her.. its onli after some time tat she sms mi telling mi tat she was in a meeting n will be late.. i was abit angry at tat point of time.. but its was her tat im angry abt.. its her company.. its lunch time n they cal for a meeting?? wat the hell is so impt sia.. dun understand..
after she came down.. went to eat bk.. den go in to cold storage but sweets all tat.. relax awhile n there she goes again.. it rly hurts mi to c her lidat suffer in tis company sia.. but there is nth i can do abt it too.. haix.. went hm soon after she went back to office.. den cfm the timing wif jonathan n joseph.. mit them 515 at redhill mrt.. reach novena quite early.. so we decided to walk ard while waiting for baby to come down..
everything is still alrite at tis moment.. but as the train moves nearer to tamp.. ting started to change again le.. haix.. ytd nite ask her if she is willing to end her game early n talk wif mi she say okie she will.. but when i ask her again today she say she wans to play longer.. after hearing tat my heart sank.. its like as if it has fallen from 100 storeys n slap hard on the ground.. its okie if u wanna play game.. im jus requesting for a little more time on fone.. i jus hate it when someone tells u he/she can do it.. but in the end nth is done.. the feeling is so like shit u noe.. i dunno if u noe how i feel anot.. but wat if i was the one telling u okie i will but end up i say no.. its not been the first or second or third time le.. its been lots of time liaox le..
we once said if anyone of us has got something in our heart we shld not keep it.. but most of the time i wont say anything.. partly is cos i dun wan after saying it we hav quarrel or wat.. n partly is i noe watever i say u sure will hav tings to tell mi back.. so i gus its of no use oso bahx.. i noe after i post out from kranji the time we spend we each other is getting lesser n lesser le.. its good tat u understand tis.. n cos of tis u play audi to keep u ocupied.. i dun blame u for tat too.. but whenever i hav free time to spend wif u.. u will be playing audi.. sometimes even if u tell mi u will cal mi at a certain time u oso can forget n continue playing ur audi.. tats wat i dun rly like..
i noe there is no way i can make u quit audi.. maybe not even jus for mi bahx.. like u say.. it has become part of ur life.. but i dun nd u to quit.. i jus hope u can spend time wif mi together when i hav the time to spend it wif u.. tats all.. for now if u remain lidat maybe i still can able to get use to it.. but hav u ever tink wat will happen after i ORD?? i will hav even more feel time by den.. n dun tell mi u will still continue tis way?? u say its bcos i hav no time for u so u find some entertainment for urself.. but when i hav time for u.. u oso doesnt rly spend much wif mi too.. so wat shld i do?? wat can i do?? pls teach mi.. haix..
tis post here isnt to pin point hu is in the wrong or wat.. we both played a part in it too.. i cant say its ur fault n i oso cant say its my fault.. n for tis post here is not to argue or quarrel wif u too.. im jus spelling out wat i feel.. actually jus posting post here n there will make no diff de lahx.. wat we nd now is to find a place n time where we can sit down n talk abt it slowly.. seriously i dunno how long will tis last if tis continues lahx.. but if lets say everything goes well n after i ORD.. wat will happen by den? both of us will hav to learn to give mi to each other le..
aiya.. i oso dunno liaox le lahx.. u told mi its veri hard cos it has become ur daily life.. but u will try.. for tat i rly hope u will keep to wat u say tis time.. smoking was oso my daily life in the past.. n i hav been smoking for more den 10 yrs.. if i can quit it.. i trust tat reducing the time playing a game will be even more easy bahx.. so i shall wait n c for the result bahx..
i hope u wont be angry over wat im saying here.. i dun wanna quarrel wif u over tis oso.. n it din meant to be a quarrel.. whether are we talking anot tonite totally depends on u le bahx.. as for tml.. i hope everything will be fine n goes smoothly bahx.. gonna logoff soon le.. bye..
was quite pissed off by him lahx.. told mi to mit him there.. den when i on my way down tat time den he told mi he going off soon.. cos he last min decide to mit joseph for dinner at jurong point there.. kaox.. he jus decide on his own wif out even asking if im willing to go down.. so end up stay at suntec there awhile jiu go jurong le.. waste my transport money..
reach jurong point den i went ard finding anklet for baby while waiting for joseph gf to come.. went so many shop oso dun hav.. den finally found it at yellow.. but the one which i tink is the best among the rest there.. n i bought a bracelet for myself too.. spend abt 30 at the shop.. after she came we jiu went to hav dinner..
they told mi tat there is a japanese restaurant ard there which is quite cheap.. but end up after eating i c the bill i blur sia.. so ex lohx.. if u ask mi to pay tat some of money eating there i rather to sakae eat sia.. even more better.. -.-
chatted wif baby over the fone for awhile.. jus hang up awhile ago onli.. everything is going back to normal le bahx.. i tink so.. but hope everything is.. so yea.. im too going to slp early tonite oso.. cos tml shld be miting her.. dun lidat i slp till nv wake up she angry again jiu jialat liaox..
so as for now.. nth much liaox le lahx.. n tat its all for today le.. ciaox..
baby..i got something i wanna say but i dunno how to say it out loud to u.. so gus tis is the onli way to let u noe bahx.. hope u wont be angry abt wat im gonna say.. i rly hope next time u can jus stop ur game abit earlier den we can spend abit more time talking on fone k.. its been long since we last talk veri long on fone le.. ever since u started playing audi the time we spend talking on fone is getting lesser n lesser le.. even sometimes jus a few sentence den jiu hang up le.. i dun wan later it comes to a extend tat we will jus cal n say good nite den jiu hang up.. i dunno if u feel it anot.. but i hav been noticing tis for quite some time le.. i wan back those time during the past where we can talk for so long n hav so much fun while talking rather den the time now.. i miss those happy moment when we had during those fone cals n everything.. will baby be willing to sacrifice abit of ur gaming time for mi mahx?? is it okie??
after blogging ytd went to read her blog.. n she too jus finish blogging so i jiu read.. n she was jus saying i din sms or msn her for the whole day.. gus at tat point of time she still has not read my blog bahx.. but its okie..
msn her told her abt it.. den chatted for awhile.. wanted to talk on fone wif her but she dun wan.. tried to go to slp after tat.. but jus cant fall aslp.. keep rolling ard the bed.. im still not feeling good.. still having the type of feeling tat someting is still wrong.. i dunno..
till abt 1 lidat still cant slp.. n i feel so darn weird.. i dunno how to descirbe tat feeling.. it jus feels so bad.. sms n ask her if she willing to talk on fone anot.. she replied ok cal bahx.. though it sound like abit unwilling bahx i tink.. but i still cal n din say anything abt it.. talk on fone for awhile.. but was keeping quiet for most of the time bahx.. i jus dunno wat i shld say.. was waiting if she will say anything.. but she din rly talk much too.. everything seems so different now.. it jus aint like last time anymore.. i dunno if she feels it tat way anot.. but i jus got tis feeling.. maybe its jus mi one sided tinking or wat bahx..
hang up ard 230 lidat.. tried to slp again but i still cant.. my mind n my leg were stopping mi from doing so.. was starting to get abit irritated liaox.. tried my best to control myself.. all the way till abt 330.. im still so awake.. sms c if she has gone to bed le anot.. den sms for awhile she jiu din reply liaox le.. den i jiu din wait anymore le.. cos got tis feeling tat she wont reply tat sms bahx.. n i rly din recieve anymore sms after tat.. gus i fall aslp ard 4+ or 5 bahx.. the last time i c my watch its already almost 5 le..
woke up ard 1+ 2 jus now.. dunno wat to do oso.. dunno if we are gonna mit anot.. msn her n chatted for awhile as she was going to play audi soon le bahx.. afterall we are not miting for today.. but nvm bahx.. its okie cos she told mi y le.. den let her rest at hm bahx.. for now.. im tinking of going out.. anywere oso can.. but wif hu i jiu dunno le.. gus maybe alone or wat bahx.. jus like wat i used to be in the past.. going out alone isnt a big issue to mi le.. jus tat i hav to adapt to it again n everyting jiu will be fine le..
gones..
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move out early in the morning on tuesday.. had a tough day.. walk like as if nobody business lidat.. was so fucking pissed off by some other ppl too.. din rly hav any mood to do anything lahx.. after the attack jiu went to rest liaox le.. was tinking for the whole day if she will still be angry wif mi anot.. tinking whether did she went to hav her lunch.. but i jus cant contact her at all..
wed was oso another tough day.. walk again for so long.. till my legs are all in pain.. jus like the same still.. din hav any mood at all.. al i did for the whole day was keep tinking n tinking of her over n over again.. all the ting she do.. her everything was jus flashing thru my mind.. jus cant help but tink of her..
thursday was the day which i can finally go back to camp n rest.. but was oso one of the worse days i hav ever had ever since.. did a last attack in the morning.. din slp for the previous.. den after the attack still had to run for abt 1km.. n during the run.. i had a trip n fall onto the ground.. had a sprain on the ankle..
den reach camp jiu sms baby le.. was inform tat we will be able to book out.. den jiu faster tell baby abt tat.. cos i was dying to mit her.. n tat was when everything started.. she had cal her mummy n told her she wont be back for dinner.. but i was last min inform tat i might not be able to book out.. cos some controlled item was lost n cant be found.. n baby was abit unhappy le i tink.. but at last ard 645 they told us tat we can book out again.. den nd to fall in for last parade b4 we get to book out.. n cos of the ting its was delayed.. n again baby was so unhappy abt it cos she had to wait for mi even more longer..
for the first time i saw her being so angry wif mi.. n for the first time she was so fierce to mi in the smses.. im not gonna say wat she said to mi here.. but those word rly punch mi deep in my heart.. was so sad at the time.. after mit her at interchange i tried to explain tings to her.. but dun tink sh could hear them in too bahx.. she was still showing mi attitude.. but i kept quiet n follow on.. my ankle was still in great pain.. but i jus kept quiet.. after eating dinner send her to take bus hm while i walk ard for awhile b4 i went back to camp.. after tat we jiu din talk liaox le.. not even sms oso.. i tried to sms but she din reply mi too.. haix..
its not tat i wanted to be late or playing ard wif u.. hope u understand mi.. there are tings tat are not of my control now.. its not like when im in kranji where i can go off anytime i wan.. i din mean make u waited for so long.. i feel bad myself too.. but there is jus nth i can do at tat point of time..
ytd morning sms her again.. was jus trying to c if she is still angry wif mi.. but i made her angry again.. i din wan to ask over n over again.. i noe u wont like it.. but all i wanna noe was if u are still angry wif mi anot.. went for SOC training after tat.. like the days b4.. still i had no mood for anything.. tinking abt everything.. i wasnt concentrating at all.. n thus end up falling down from the obstacle again.. was able to continue training already.. suppose to be in great pain cos i was not even able to walk.. but i wasnt feeling any pain at all.. gus everything had numb mi from inside le bahx.. in the nite my sir bring mi to the mess for a drink.. drink n drink n drink non stop.. hoping tat could stop mi from tinking too much.. but i jus dun feel a single ting at all.. was back in bunk n tried calling she but she din pick up oso.. sms her she oso din reply till i send a second sms.. n i gus tat sms made her angry again bahx.. kept my fone in the cupboard n went to lie down on my bed.. as i tried to slp.. tears jus flow out.. wipe it off n i control it till i fall aslp..
woke up early tis morning.. was feeling abit better on my leg.. so i decided to take part in the ndp training.. but i jus cant concentrate on anything tat i do.. n i fall the hell off the stairways tis time.. din noe wat the hell im doing too.. after i roll down i rly cant do anything anymore.. cant even move.. everyone was so shock when i roll down the stairs.. but luckily i din hurt myself from the fall.. onli ting was my leg tat was hurt again.. for the whole day i din sms her.. not noe-ing if i shld sms her anot.. wanted to for alot of times.. but after everything i type i still dunno if i shld send anot.. so end up till now no sms was send to her.. like she say.. maybe we shld not talk for the time being n let her cooloff first bahx..
now finally hm already.. cant rly walk much still.. but tink after some rest everything jiu will be okie le bahx.. i dunno if u will be reading my blog anot.. but if u were to read tis is wat i wanna let u noe.. although i din sms u for the whole day din mean im no tinking of u at all.. i jus dunno if i shld anot.. having fear tat i might again say the wrong ting n make u angry again.. n i din mean to make u angry again n again.. im feeling so bad now.. n i din blame u for all tis at all.. hope u will get over it soon n talk to mi again soon bahx.. i rly do hope so.. n i miss u alot.. gus i already cant do wif out u le.. i love u still..
n lastly i wanna say.. baby im so so sorry.. dui bu qi.. hope u will forgive mi soon.. take care.. going off for now.. gones..
was out in the afternoon to mit zip go suntec nokia care do someting.. but when we reach already close liaox le.. so din get to do.. walk to ms there n slack awhile b4 going to foodcourt to eat.. had duck rice again.. been long since i last eat le.. heex.. so nice.. no noe-ing where to go after tat.. we walk ard the area.. to esplanade den to floating platform den again to suntec..
cal ryan n decide to mit up at ps.. so we jiu took 111 to ps.. walk ard n wait till he come.. den go over to arcade to c ppl play game.. after tat pei them go pastamania eat.. ah ger n greg came awhile after tat.. got nth much to do le.. so we all jiu went up to starbucks n slack..
sms wif baby for awhile.. cos she was playing game n din wanna disturb her play game.. wanna let her play her game while she can den after tat reach hm jiu cal talk le.. so we jiu slack there till abt 1030 den everyone left for hm.. reach redhill at abt 11.. cal baby to talk cos in case if she slp early mahx.. den onli chatted for awhile.. cos she wans to play her game.. saying she will cal back in awhile den i jiu say okie lohx.. wanted her to slp early cos she tml still gotta wake up early for work.. but she still play till so late den cal.. gus if i din sms ask her if she will still be calling i tink she will still be playing bahx..
aiya.. nvm lahx.. i oso dunno wat to say anymore liaox le lahx.. sometimes she is okie.. but sometime the same ting comes back again.. i dunno lahx.. but maybe the game can rly let her relax n enjoy tat much bahx.. gus im not gonna say much liaox le.. jus let her be as how she wans to be bahx..
nth much for mi to say liaox le.. anyway jus to add tat im gonna hav a 3 days 2 nite out field tis tuesday.. if got anyting nd to find mi jus sms mi bahx.. will get back to anyone of u as soon as i get back to camp.. gonna logoff le.. bye..
was quite a tiring week lahx.. book in monday nite.. den tuesday was slacking for the whole morning.. but afternoon jiu siong liaox le.. afternoon we move out for our out field.. reach there le den muz recce first den set up defence there sia.. so tiring lohx.. was walking ard in full battle order sia.. boo.. finally find our spot liaox le.. den jiu start to commerce defence.. dig dig dig n dig.. dig till i like wanna die liaox oso still haven dig finish.. was digging thru the nite sia.. but nite time cant rly c so i got slack awhile lahx.. haha..
den morning got light le start to dig again.. till noon den got defence mission to do.. den after tat everyting jiu finish liaox le.. was waiting for the bus to faster come.. cos i told baby i will be back in camp ard noon.. but its already 7 le but bus still not here yet.. first ting when i got back to camp jiu faster sms baby tell her im back le.. den quickly went to bathe liaox jiu cal baby le.. talk for awhile den jiu go slp le.. cos too tired liaox le..
as for thursday n friday was still quite okie lahx.. got tings to do still.. but not as siong as tat out field.. haha.. but still not the time for mi to laugh yet.. cos next tuesday to thursday got another out field mission again.. heard tat it will be more siong den the last one.. haix.. sianx.. i hate out fields.. boohoo..
as for ytd.. woke up early in the morning.. den jiu prep for ndp training liaox le.. ytd was the combine one.. so many ppl was there sia.. so scarly.. lucky everyting goes smoothly.. ard 4 baby sms mi told mi she has left hm for ecp for the bbq le.. hope she enjoys it bahx.. how i wish i could be there to pei her as well.. but well.. i cant.. cos of the ndp.. sorry oh baby.. but nvm.. cos we will still be miting in the nite for kbox.. heex.. finish everyting quite early ytd n so jiu reach camp early.. den can book out early too.. so jiu faster sms baby ask her where she is le.. but she was jus on her way back hm onli.. so end up i jiu ownself went hm to bathe den mit her later at cine lohx..
jun feng came to pick mi up at my hse here.. n the surprise ting is my daddy follow mi to go celebrate baby's bday too.. haha.. reach town there den faster go swensen buy ice cream cake for baby.. cos dun wanna let her noe.. den i jiu faster go up n open room first liaox le.. when baby came in to the room n saw my daddy.. her expression was like so shock sia.. lol.. so cute.. haha.. den sing sing till abt 1230 den i ask the person to bring in the cake.. kana sabo by them all lohx.. haha.. but okie.. everyone was jus trying to hav fun.. so yea.. its okie..
after cutting cake le den one by one jiu started leaving liaox le.. actually wanna stay till morning de.. but leong vomited.. so till abt 3+ lidat jiu all leave liaox le.. the rest shared cab back while mi n baby took a cab back to my hse.. but gus wat.. baby oso vomit jus b4 reaching hm.. haha.. hope she is okie bahx.. woke up ard 8 lidat.. den bathe n change le.. after tat cook maggi for baby to eat.. cos she wan mi to save money.. den after tat relax awhile more jiu send her back hm le lohx..
gus now baby is resting bahx.. hopefully so.. cos she seem quite tired still.. will be waiting for her sms after she wakes up.. as for now.. dun tink i got anyting to do or anywhere to go le bahx.. so gus its time again to nua at hm le.. haha..
n lastly.. i wish baby happy birthday once again.. hope u enjoy ur day ytd wif the gals n at kbox bahx.. heex.. as for those hu sabo us.. when their bday comes we sabo them back k.. hugs.. love u lotsa my darling.. muackiex..