jus got hm from my frens chalet.. cos its his 21th bday.. so jiu went down to c c lohx.. he oso din rly hav the time to entertain us much lahx.. cos got alot of his frens were there too.. but during the cutting cake part we dominate.. lol.. he kana sabo by us till veri jialat.. weets.. den jus got hm not long ago onli..
lets continue from ytd bahx.. had icct training again on monday n tuesday.. was so shag after tat 2 days of training.. den wednesday to friday was company training.. had lots n lots of lecture sia.. keep falling aslp during lecture.. haha.. but friday got practical in the morning.. but for the rest of the afternoon was free liaox le.. cos next week got out field training again le.. but its onli a 2 day 1 nite de training nia.. so still okie bahx..
book out on friday nite as we got nite off.. actually was miting baby de.. but she was not feeling well.. so jiu nv mit liaox le.. den i went back hm to wash my clothes.. stay at hm for abt 30 mins lidat den jiu go off le.. cos nd to reach camp by 11.. went back call baby but she fall aslp liaox le.. so i jiu oso go n slp le..
woke up abt 7 lidat.. den draw arms n prep den jiu left for ndp training at esplanade there le.. was busy training for the whole day.. till no time for mi to sms wif baby.. baby was having slight fever tat day too.. but was okie soon after.. after training reach camp ard 9.. den settle everyting n wash up.. book out ard 9+ 10 lidat.. went hm straight.. was feeling so tired sia..
after my post ytd cal baby.. but she din pick up again.. cos she you fall aslp again le.. :( so many din talk on fone wif her liaox le sia.. boo.. went to slp soon after.. woke up quite early tis morning to go hav breakfast wif my aunty.. den went back hm slack den jiu slp for the whole afternoon bahx.. cos was suppose to mit baby de.. but she still wasnt feeling well so jiu let her stay at hm n rest bahx.. slp till abt 6 lidat wake up den jiu prep n went to my fren chalet liaox le..
so overall for the week is kinda boring lahx.. it aint as happening as its was like last time liaox le.. but nvm.. 2+ mths more n everyting will be back to normal le i tink.. let rly hope so bahx.. n as for now.. its time for mi to go to bed again liaox le.. gonna go be my pig pig le.. heex.. good nite ppl..
woke up at 10 tis morning.. suppose to wake baby up at 9 den mit her at 11 de.. but i overslept.. den baby oso nv ownself wake up.. when i woke up at 10 jiu fast sms c if she wake up le mahx anot.. haha.. den end up mit at 12 lidat at cityhall den we jiu make our way down to novena.. walk ard for awhile to bring baby go c how the place is like over there as she will be going there for attachment starting from tml..
had long john at there too.. after tat took 851 to cityhall.. walk to esplanade there.. wanted to show baby the position im at during ndp but too bad cant c properly from there.. nvm lahx.. anyway i told her where im le.. n its quite easy to spot oso.. haha.. let her ownself go find mi on tv on tat day bahx.. lol..
took 196 to bedok den walk to ecp wif baby.. cos wanna pei baby go there pass ting to her god-father lohx.. den after tat walk ard for awhile den jiu took cab le.. baby drop mi off at bedok mrt there n she continue cab hm.. n i oso took train hm.. fall aslpin train again.. haha.. everytime oso lidat de.. lolx..
mit jonathan at redhill mrt den after tat i go cut hair.. now come hm to change n bathe den jiu going out liaox le.. going to airport wif jonathan.. but baby isnt going wif mi though.. cos she has to be hm for dinner as today is father's day.. hope she enjoys her day out wif mi today bahx.. heex.. tink im sop here le.. wanna go bathe liaox.. jus cut hair den now so itchy.. haha.. ciaox..
book in last sun.. did nth much from monday to wednesday.. haha.. everyday oso doing same ting.. icct.. whack here n there den twist here n there oso.. till my whole body is aching now..my arms feel like as though is breaking liaox oso le.. haha.. so shag sia.. den wed nite got nites off.. went out to eat at tamp wig my camp mates.. cos baby wasnt miting mi.. den after tat walk ard for awhile jiu went back to camp le..
training on thursday morning again.. but its jus a short one.. haha.. den after tat rest till evening lidat den jiu went to play soccer.. lol.. but we lost.. cos the other team is rly too pro liaox le lahx.. n oso i veri long nv play liaox le.. no skill liaox.. haha.. chatted wif baby almost every nite.. den after tat jiu go slp liaox le..
friday oso din do anything much.. had short lessons again.. den jiu rest le.. waited for nite off again.. heex.. din hav dinner in camp oso.. cos miting baby for dinner outside n oso camp got no food for us to eat.. baby pei mi came back hm to wash my clothes.. heex.. den wanted to go eat curry rice de.. but the stupid coffeeshop upgrading.. so we end up eating fish ball noodle..i had another plate of carrot cake oso.. dunno y i was feeling so hungry oso.. haha.. becoming pig liaox le lohx..
walk to tiong bahru to take train den send baby back hm.. went back camp after tat.. but reach quite early..so jiu sit outside n wait for my frens to come den we went in tgt.. heex.. finish n done wif everyting den cal baby.. but she din pick up n din call back too.. so i jiu oso went to slp liaox le.. midnite got a sms from baby saying she fall aslp.. after reading i jiu oso go back slp liaox le.. lol.. tink too tired liaox le bahx.. canot blame mi.. had been walking none stop since last week..
tis morning wake up.. prep n went to ms there for ndp training.. haha.. had kfc for lunch.. den rain for quite some time.. had a good slp at there cos raining canot do anyting.. heex.. rain stop ard 4 plus den jiu continue training.. all the way till 7+.. den waited for bus to come den jiu go back camp le.. faster send arms n wash up jiu book out le.. din sms baby for the whole day till i book out.. cos she was out shopping wif the gals.. din wanna disturb her oso..
finally now back at hm liaox le.. heex.. talking on fone now wif baby.. after tat gonna go eat den jiu go slp liaox le.. will be booking in again tml.. sianx but nvm.. cos 2+ mths more jiu.. ORD LOHX.. ;x n baby had some bad news abt her sch ting oso.. but dun tink im gonna say it here bahx.. i noe jiu enuf liao le.. so tat all i tink.. ciaox..
actually suppose to go watch movie.. but baby say she going back hm for dinner.. i jitao hear liao sian diao.. haix.. everyting was so perfect in the start when we plan.. but i dun blame her lahx.. she nd to pei her parents oso.. no choice.. but was feeling quite disappointed lahx.. din talk much after tat..
send her to bedok.. den i go pay my bills.. c liao i jiu headache liao.. haix.. so many problem now.. boo.. i hate it.. den pei her wait for 69.. after she board bus my bus jiu oso come le.. den took 33 hm.. jus reach hm awhile onli.. but gonna go out again soon le.. cos going to go back camp soon.. will be back on sat nite.. cos got ndp training on sat..
gus tats all le bahx.. ciaox..
forget wat i did on monday tuesday le.. haha.. too shag from the out field le bahx.. heex.. den wed was resting for the whole day.. cos we will be moving out in the nite.. so we nd lots of rest.. lucky they let us rest oso lahx.. cos rly is super siong sia.. full battle order walk for 12+ km den reach objective den still nd to do attack somemore.. plus whole nite din slp..
was sms-ing wif baby in the afternoon tat day.. but she wasnt reply much though.. was feeling quite down lahx.. cos i rly hope she can pei mi b4 i go out field.. but aiya.. nvm lahx.. over le i oso dun wanna talk much abt it liaox le lahx.. den b4 i move off cal her awhile to chat den jiu go off le..
after our attack on thursday we continue to dig our trench.. dig till wanna die sia.. first time i feel lidat.. got so many roots n stones sia.. den so many grass oso.. still nd to clear the grass den can dig.. from morning 10+ dig till evening sia.. like wanna die liaox le.. but i still continue.. cos i dun wanna do tings half way.. it jus anit my type..
den at nite did defence till midnite 4+.. den jiu move off again to the other objective le.. walk another 6+ km lidat.. den same ting.. nd to do attack on the building again.. but tis one still okie.. cos its fun lahx.. haha.. i tink its fun.. ;x den after tat set up base n do defence again.. till abt 2 den finish everyting.. jiu prep to go back camp liaox le.. everyone was so damn excited can.. lol.. first time c those guy can run so fast in full battle order.. haha.. im one of them oso lahx.. ;x
reach camp clean weapon den jiu go bathe n prep to book out le.. miting baby at tm de mac.. cos i suddenly feel like eating mac.. heex.. den after tat slowly walk baby hm.. cos i noe we veri long nv walk hm liaox le n she miss it lots rite?? heex.. after tat i jiu went back to camp liaox le.. reach camp change n everyting le jiu cal her n chat for awhile den i jiu go slp liaox le.. fall aslp veri fast once after i hang up..tink rly is too tired le bahx..
woke up ard 7 ytd.. den go eat breakfast den jiu go do my duty le.. was waiting for baby to sms mi for the whole day.. but she din sms mi oso de.. onli till 6+ lidat den recieve sms from her.. saying she was slping for the whole day.. haha.. my little piggy.. was feeling quite upset lahx.. cos was alone n got no one to accompany mi.. but after tat was okie le..
suppose to mit baby in the morning to hav breakfast.. so i jiu din eat my breakfast n waited for her.. cal her ard 8 to wake her up n remind her not to go back to slp.. but she still went back to slp.. n not noeing she was back to slp i was waiting n slowly doing my ting so tat she wont hav to rush to prep herself.. but den recieve sms from her say she was back to slp n is gonna mit later.. i jitao sian sia.. the feeling was so sucky can.. haix.. but nvm lahx..
now gonna go bathe n prep to go mit her liaox le.. later going for lunch wif my auntie.. den after tat going to watch movie i tink.. hopefully she can pei mi for the whole day today.. cos its rly been some time b4 we mit again after the quarrel we had le.. miss her so much.. so tink tats all le bahx.. ciaox..
but lastly b4 i go off.. happy200th days baby.. i din forget it.. jus tat i din say out onli.. heex.. loves.. huggies..
ytd jus finish my live firing.. den after tat reach camp ard 2+.. wah kao.. go there feed mosquito lohx.. sianx.. kana bite till dunno like wat lidat.. but still okie lahx.. jus bear wif it lohx.. wat to do.. den reach camp first ting jiu faster go up take hp n sms baby to let her noe im back in camp le.. so tat she wont worry..
was abit shock ytd lahx.. cos she told mi she jus reach hm ard 1 lidat.. den i blur.. was tinking where did she go till so late.. den end up is go jerlyn de bbq.. zip n leong was there too.. so at least im not so worry.. den sms wif her till she fall aslp bahx i tink.. din slp much too.. cos after we finish everyting was ard 4+ le.. den 6 jiu muz wake up n wait for book out le..
reach hm ard 8+ bahx.. forget liaox le oso.. haha.. den recieve my new modem.. its a mio.. but i din sign up for mio plan.. haha.. finish setting up den msn baby den jiu went to slp liaox le.. woke up at 1 lidat.. cos zip come find mi.. going to do job awhile later.. follow him to send laptop to his customer den after tat we jiu go down simlim buy parts for my customer le.. took cab to jurong after tat.. den faster go up do the com..
went to jurong point c ppl play mt for awhile.. feel like playing too.. but i got no money.. so jiu nv play le.. but even if i got i oso wont play bahx.. muz save money n cant anyhow spend liaox le.. so yea.. jus reach hm not long ago onli.. cos nd to pack my tings n get ready to book in to camp again le.. so sianx sia.. i hate booking in times..
dunno y i was feeling veri moodless n bored today.. maybe is cos of my bday ting bahx.. not gonna celebrate tis yr again i tink.. except for last thurs nite de lohx.. tml was my bday n no one is coming out oso.. haix.. it jus seems like wat it is a few yr back bahx.. celebrating my bday all alone.. hoping to mit baby for awhile too.. but sms n msn her oso nv reply le.. sad ting.. nvm bahx.. gus im jus gonna past tis yr alone.. shld br able to get use to it easier bahx..
not gonna say much liao le.. gonna log off n prep my ting liaox.. next book out will be on next sunday le.. so im gonna hav a long week in camp again.. do miss mi k.. i will miss u alot de..
she said she doesnt wanna tink n talk abt it anymore.. n i respect her.. n the comment she post for mi in friendster.. its so sweet so nice.. i love it lots.. but she still aint gonna talk to mi for the next few days.. jus let her hav some time to cool herself down bahx.. dun wanna force her into doing anyting oso le.. so gus i will still hav to wait for tis few days to pass b4 we can talk again bahx..
gonna go get ready n prep for camp le.. will blog again on sun after i book out from live firing.. gones..
wandering if she would forgive mi.. but i dun tink so still bahx.. the ans she gave mi was i dunno.. haix.. wat shld i do.. wat can i do.. i rly dunno.. im so lost wif out u.. hopefully she will give mi another chance bahx..
for now.. there is nth for mi to do.. onli left wif waiting for booking in to camp for tml live firing nia.. hopefully everyting goes rite for mi bahx.. hav got no mood to do anyting.. tried to eat jus now.. but when i c the food.. im full le.. jus cant seem to swallow anyting in.. haix..
nvm bahx.. i will slowly try.. gone..
from the last sms i send her till now there is still no reply yet.. i noe wat i did today was so veri wrong.. n no doubt she will be angry.. but tinking over it again n again.. i rly feel so bad.. im such a asshole.. an idiot.. a good for nth idiot.. its my bad to treat her tis way.. i cfm will regret if anything were to happen to tis relationship cos of tis.. i will nv forgive myself for wat happen today.. its like a dot on a paper.. nth can ever erase it away..
till now im still unable to slp.. how i wish i could noe how is she now.. is she feeling better.. did she had her dinner.. hav she gone to bed.. will she be able to wake up on time for sch tml.. n everyting tings else.. everyting in my mind now is jus her.. her good n her bad.. like i say b4.. no matter wat she do.. the most i will be angry for awhile n everyting will be over veri soon.. but.. haix.. nvm bahx.. saying so much now will make no diff le.. wats done is done.. i cant turn back time to change it oso..
hopefully when i cal her in the morning she would pick up bahx.. i rly hope she will..
baby.. i dunno if u will be reading my blog anymore.. but since everyting happen up till now.. u r in my mind every sec every min.. i miss u so much.. sorry abt my attitude.. sorry for all my bad behaviour.. sorry for all the bad tings tat i hav done.. sorry for all the hurts i hav gave u.. sorry for everyting.. im sincerly sorry..
i shall try to go lie down on bed again to c if i can slp anot.. will update again soon bahx..