Friday, May 30, 2008Y
1:48 PM
finally im back here blogging le.. actually wanna blog for the past few days de.. but i rly hav got no mood to do anything for the past few days.. =] so sorry for those hu do come n read..tings aint going any good for mi at all recently.. jus change n job at the beginning of tis week.. but although work there is good n its still okie.. but it aint like the past anymore.. when i can hav some much free time slacking.. at the side im working now.. i will be so damn busy.. so busy tat i wont even hav the time to read any sms n not to talk abt cals.. n working here now means injuries everywhere.. its been jus 1 week n i hav got cuts almost everywhere on both of my hands.. some cut is jus so deep tat the blood jus wont stop dripping..
n guys.. dun misunderstood.. i noe im in a veri down period now for almost everything.. but i aint foolish enuf to cut myself.. its all jus bcos of work tat i keep cut myself on my hands.. so dun tink tat i cut myself bcos im feeling down cos i aint tat dumb.. =]
been facing lots of problems recently oso.. its jus too much to spell it all out.. abt work abt r/s abt my 21st bday.. as for work i tink most tat noe mi well will noe wat kind of job im working as le.. so nd not explain anymore.. as for r/s.. its been getting from a sweet n loving one to bad n now to worse le.. i hav rly got no idea how come tings will turn out tis way.. or i shld say i dunno how come all my r/s will oways turn out to be in such a way.. all of it seems so similar.. although they r all diff gals from diff place n diff char.. but its oways the same de.. although i hav put in my 100% in all my r/s but none of it seems to turn out good..
i jus dunno wat the problem.. izzit jus mi or izzit them? izzit tat the way i hav treated them is too well tat they will take mi for granted.. or izzit tat i hav not done good enuf for them to love mi more.. or izzit tat its the punishment for mi for all the bad tings tat i hav done.. if its rly a punishment for mi den i would rather bear the punishment all by myself.. i dun wan the person i love to be facing the punishment tgt wif mi.. cos it has got nth to do wif them at all.. watever bad tings which i hav done in the past.. its all my own doing n its got nth to do wif anyone else.. so if its a punishment for mi den jiu let the one hu suffers be mi alone n leave those tat i love lohx..
as for my bday.. i dun even noe if the person i wan most to be there will be there anot.. so i rly dunno if there is still any point to celebrate tis bday anymore liaox le.. jus feel so suckie rite now.. i dunno wat to say now oso.. jus feeling kinda crazy now.. till shi xian oso dun rly dare to talk to mi.. pls.. i aint any monster n i dun eat ppl.. =[
Saturday, May 24, 2008Y
11:11 AM
its been some days tat i nv blog liaox le.. cos totally no mood to blog plus im lazy to blog.. hahas.. but gus i shld be blogging liaox le.. cos im now so so so free everyday.. ;xu guys might wonder y am i so free nowadays?? cos i hav quit my job le.. too many problem r coming up.. n im sick n tired of working wif tat bunch of idiots.. hahas.. to tink tat im tat dumb to believe wat u tell mi?? go back hm to learn telling lies for afew more yrs den come lie to mi lahx.. lols.. im not gonna be the idiot to everytime come so early to work but yet those idiots oways wait till the last min b4 starting work den them will come.. bye bye is all i can say..
wif out mi coming early.. i can be so so so damn sure they hav their ass kicked my boss.. n im so so so rite lahx.. after seeing tat i so many days nv come work.. my boss jiu start to qns them n even cal mi ytd.. n learn to noe from my boss tat he ytd jus f*** them up in the morning onli.. cos he learn to noe wat hav happen in the morning.. but he nv scold mi at all.. lols.. he still tell mi find 1 day free go find him he wanna discuss someting wif mi sia.. woots..
as for tis days which i nv work.. i was at hm playing my ps2 all the way lahx.. play RTK10.. hahas.. like so no life lidat rite.. no choice oso lahx.. my 8800GTS graphic got some problem nd to send for repair.. =[ den oso cant ask honey out.. cos she has got to attend some impt tings tis few days.. so yea.. jiu jus stayed at hm lohx.. n ya.. honey do cheer up k.. if got anything do tell mi.. smile k.. heex..
but gus tis is my last week being so free liaox le bahx.. cos im gonna start a new work on monday again le.. hahas.. so u idiot listen up here.. dun tink i will die wif out u ppl.. i hav still got tons of ppl wanna employ mi ard.. lols.. so yea.. gonna enjoy as muc as i can now b4 i start working again bahx.. cos its so hard to find time for mi to enjoy de.. heex..
off to play my RTK10 liaox le.. n is waiting for honey de reply.. tink she is rly busy bahx.. today already 2nd day she nv sms mi le.. but okie lahx.. cos i noe tat she is busy.. honey.. im missing ya.. waiting for ur sms k.. =]
Sunday, May 18, 2008Y
6:45 PM
rember when i reading my last post its seems so fun so nice so sweet.. but i gus happiness jus cant last bahx.. its like jus afew days ago tat seem to be so sweet of us both.. but now its all so different again liaox le.. totally different.. i can blame no one at all.. cos ppl ard hav already tell mi to give up le.. but i jus cant seem to give it up bahx.. so there is no one i can blame but myself for bringing tis upon myself bahx..but i hav decided tis time le.. watever the decision tat is gonna be made when the time is rite i will jus keep to tat decision tat is made le.. i will not be holding on n not letting go again tis time le.. cos i dun wanna be seems like a despo to anyone.. n after tinking abt so many tings.. i understand n understood le.. no matter wat she is still not married to mi oso.. so i cant be asking her to do anything for mi too.. n oso.. i shld not be holding on n not let go bahx.. she av got her own freedom to do watever she wan.. so yea..
so honey.. i dunno if will u be reading my blog.. but if u do c tis.. do go into our own space to read the post tat i hav post up specially for u bahx.. den after reading pls go n tink abt it all n let mi noe the ans to it bahx.. during the meantime.. i will not disturb or bother u tinking bahx.. but do rly tink of it carefully n clearly b4 making any decisions bahx.. n take good care of urself.. jus rember no matter wat i will still be there..
Wednesday, May 14, 2008Y
3:55 PM
lalalala.. been quite afew days since i last blog oso le bahx.. hahas.. cos was kinda in a tight schedule.. lol.. fri sat n sun was the chalet.. although i din noe much of the ppl there but i tink its still okie bahx.. dunno but there is still talks ard..mit honey at bedok b4 heading for the chalet on friday.. den reach there bbq abit n talk ard.. till abt 12 lidat den we cut cake for sharon.. after the cake cutting session was funny lahx.. we sabo sharon by smashing some of the cake on her face.. lols.. damn funny lahx.. ;x after everything ended den we watch tv n slack awhile b4 going to slp..
next morning wake up quite early n went to mac for breakfast tgt wif the rest.. after tat went to rent bicycle to cycle back to the chalet.. den whole afternoon din do anything much oso i gus.. except for mi going to marine parade to buy live prawns for fishing in the nite.. other den tat jiu nth liaox le.. ard evening time we jiu start bbq again..
was playing volleyball wif some others.. funny lahx.. dunno how to play den we at there anyhow throw n hit the ball.. lols.. after awhile jiu stop playing le n waited for my bro to come.. honey went hm after my bro came cos her mummy wans her to be hm tat nite.. den sit down n chat awhile more b4 we left for fishing..
i cycled to bedok jetty while my bro n his fren walk there.. hahas.. den fish fish fish for the whole nite n got nth.. actually is got 2 fish le.. but den dumbo them dunno how to do den let the fish escape.. hahas.. boohoo them lahx.. abt 3+ alan came n bought us roti prata for supper.. so stop awhile to eat the pratas b4 we continue again..
fish half way jiu saw the sky turning red le.. wanna continue awhile more c how but den after awhile more the whole sky jiu red le lohx.. its like so damn fast lohx.. den the strong wind jiu start liaox le.. din hav time to keep our ting so jus take den jiu wait to shelter le.. jus nice reach shelter jiu rain le.. so cold lohx.. its like freezing wif the whole body wet plus the cold wind blowing.. omg..
but after the rain everything jiu okie le.. n there comes the fishes n all.. caught quite alot.. den ard 7+ we jiu leave le.. my bro they all went hm while i went back to the chalet.. rest awhile b4 waking up to return the bicycle n pack up den jiu went off to subway to eat b4 we went hm.. overall everything is quite okie lahx.. except for some tings n the food is rly too much le.. hahas..
sunday reach hm den jiu faster bath n jiu go slp liaox le.. hahas.. slp for the whole day till nite den wake up.. at nite wake up le eat abit le den went back to slp again.. lol.. den monday jiu went to work again.. work work work.. but im still in those relaxing de holiday mood sia.. lols..
ytd oso work.. actually can finish early de.. but the container delay den came in late.. so by the time finish jiu abt 4 le.. faster went hm to bath n all den after tat jiu leave hm to go mit honey for dinner.. actually is wanna go eat stingray de.. but den mummy wanna eat popeye so we jiu went to eat popeye instead so we can buy back for them to eat.. but after reaching airport jiu dun feel like eating popeye le.. so we end up eating swensens.. had our fondue cravings fulfilled oso.. hahas..
cab back to honey hm den i jiu cab back hm again.. lols.. like alot of money lidat sia.. keep cab here cab there.. hahas.. but not true lahx.. gus tis month im gonna be broke again le.. ;x honey is going to scold mi if she c tis.. ciao..
Thursday, May 08, 2008Y
12:00 AM
life nowadays is so much more boring den ever b4.. sometimes its jus seem tat its rly tiring to be living tis type of life all being alone.. having no one to talk to.. even sms was sometimes not replied.. hahas.. sounds like im kinda desperate for someone to talk to or sms wif rite.. hahas.. doesnt seem to be so.. all tis feeling was all cos by some reasons.. its not tat im like a despo finding for someone k.. lols..been almost a week le.. there is not no talk at all.. even sms oso seems like dun hav lidat.. hahas.. the person shld noe wat is all tis abt bahx.. =] tink we cant even communicate already le bahx.. doesnt seem to understand wat im talking abt too.. cant even hear mi out den jiu start to bu nai fan le.. tings were all so much diff from the start until now le bahx.. it jus seems like i doesnt mean anything or seems impt to u anymore le.. happy u cal u sms.. not happy jiu no cal no sms no nth.. tings said le oso not done oso.. hahas.. den wats the use of saying it but not doing it lehx..
maybe i muz agree wif wat greg is saying bahx.. wats meant to be mine will be mine.. wats not meant to be mine no matter wat i do how much i do it will still still not be mine de.. maybe its all true bahx.. tings r all seem to be drifting further n further liao le bahx.. but its not mi tat is drifting further.. its u tat is drifting further away from mi le.. i can no longer stop u from drifting any further away anymore le.. bcos nth i say now seems to be able to get into u anymore le..
i forgot wat i did on monday le.. all i noe it was jus a boring day bahx i gus.. den was ytd.. tot tings were okie le but its all jus for awhile onli.. went to drink after work.. forgot how much i drink liao le.. but okie bahx.. not drunk or wat oso.. drink till abt 1+.. den after tat went hm rest awhile le den went to beach road to buy some fishing stuffs.. after tat went hm to pack the fishinf tings le den jiu went fishing at bedok jetty le.. its jus like those no life de ppl will do de ting.. fish till 2+ den jiu pack up n went hm to slp le..
dunno y woke up so early in the morning oso.. jus slp till halfway den jiu suddenly wake up n cant slp le.. so jiu wait till time is up n went to work.. den afternoon jiu shi arguements n arguements.. after work went to buy some stuffs for my upcoming chalet in june den jiu go hm le.. talking abt the chalet.. im wondering if i shld order buffet or jus bbq or buffet n bbq tgt.. lols.. but if buffet n bbq tgt den bbq food jiu wont hav tat much le lohx.. jus some standard bbq food like satay n otah.. hahas.. so anyone.. any comment on wat to do for it mahx??
gus starting from now on jiu shi the starting of my no life days le bahx.. =] awaiting for the upcoming chalet tis weekend.. wonder if she would keep to wat she said to mi n accompany mi there or if she would back out from it last min.. i dunno n i dun wanna noe oso bahx.. so jiu shall c how tings goes on for now bahx.. =]
off to stone le..
Sunday, May 04, 2008Y
3:06 AM
test test.. =]