Sunday, October 07, 2007Y
5:18 PM
haix.. i dunno wat is happening to mi oso lahx.. jus keep feeling emo emo emo.. whenever i read her blog jiu will lidat.. haix..ytd when to mit her for lunch at tamp.. went to eat pizza hut.. as i dunno when is the next time i can c her again.. so jiu bring her go eat better food bahx.. took cab down to her hse n fetch her.. was kinda controlling my tears when i c her.. din talk at all in the cab.. till we reach tm den got talk abit..
after lunch went to walk ard for awhile.. den after tat took bus to woodlands as i hav work.. reach there n its raining.. so waited for awhile den we started work.. finish everything ard 8 lidat.. actually was planning to go kbox wif her in the nite de.. but den she say her mummy dun let her go out so jiu nv mit liaox le..
i wasnt pissed off or wat oso.. i dunno y lahx.. but its jus tat im kinda use to it liaox le bahx.. everytime when i nd someone to be there for mi jiu cant find anyone de.. haix.. so im kinda xi guan liaox le bahx.. end up when to find kenneth at holland v de eski bar.. went to drink.. was kinda having a little high de feeling lahx.. but still not drunk yet..
sms her n tell her my feelings last nite.. i dunno if she will listen or will jus c n forget abt it.. but i will still jus wait.. wait n wait n wait.. went to eat abit b4 going back to kenneth hse.. den talk awhile b4 we went to slp bahx.. had quite a nice slp on his cozy bed.. been long since i went to his hse to slp over liaox le..
woke up ard 12+ today morning.. den eat breakfast n slack awhile den jiu leave his hm ard 3+ lidat bahx i tink.. cab n send him to tanjong pagar there n i continue my way back.. reach hm n start com n first ting like usual is to read her blog.. but everytime when i c her blog.. i jiu feel like as though million of needles r piercing into mi.. the pain to c all those tings.. i noe we broke up le.. n i hav got no rite to say anything or comment on anything.. but u noe.. wo shi yi ge you gan jue de ren lehx.. wo bu shi yi ge mei gan jue de si ren.. jus tis few days n there is so many sweet talks here n there.. or maybe am i invisible to them all.. huhs?? after we broke up someone seems to hav more freedom n more fang bian to say anything as he wans le..
i seriously dunno wat i shld say or i can say.. i rly dunno liaox le.. she told mi not to lidat.. but how do u wan mi not to lidat.. im nv like wat.. its jus normal human feelings n one has.. if u were to c anyone having sweet talks wif mi jus few days after all tis tat happen ni hui zhe me xiang.. i noe u may say u wont say anything.. jus like wat u will oways say.. but is it rly wat u mean n feel mahx?? haix..
anyway jus some updates bahx.. finally i got myself into trouble ytd during work liaox le bahx.. i jus cant get to concentrate myself at doing anything.. no matter its during work or not.. i jus cant.. n ytd due to tis.. i bang onto someone's car.. n now i still dunno wat will happen.. not sure if the insurance will be able to cover the cost mahx.. haix.. i hav rly got myself into big trouble now le.. ><