Thursday, September 13, 2007Y
11:05 PM
back to blog blog again.. i dunno lahx.. but i like dun wan blog oso liaox le.. maybe tis shall be my last post le bahx.. i dunno.. c how den..as said like ytd nite.. was feeling down.. went to slp ard 2+ i tink.. den tis morning woke up ard 11+ lidat.. was still kinda feeling down when i woke up tis morning.. so i din wanna talk much.. all the way till i mit her le im still lidat.. den after miting her i feel kinda even worse.. i oways tot after miting her.. maybe i will be able to feel better.. but im not anymore.. cos she doesnt rly seem to care oso le.. no qns ask on y im lidat oso.. nth..
den went to buy tickets for 1408.. after tat went to find food to eat.. cos we all haven eat our lunch yet.. i wanna try to talk de.. but she was like busy sms-ing.. walk n sms n walk n sms.. so i jiu din talk much.. jus kept quiet.. den after lunch went to walk ard to buy some ting.. den after tat jiu went up to watch movie le.. okie lahx.. the show was still okie.. not as bad as wat my kor hav said.. n tings start to change after the show.. tats wat i hate the most..
ask her if can go my hse check someting anot.. den she jiu at there joke joke.. im seriously asking.. although i might sound joking.. but im serious.. u were rite.. in the cinema u did say dun wan.. but when i ask again cant u jus it again.. i wont be angry at all.. im not like wat u tink so xiao qi.. cos of tis i will be angry or wat.. but she doesnt seem to understand n tis leads to someting else..
i dun wanna say wat happen.. but its isnt nice at all.. n i almost blow to my top.. but i keep controlling myself.. after some time i cool down n talk tings slowly to her.. saying all the ting she has said to mi.. all the tings she said she would do but she din.. everything was finally out today.. but as usual she is jus there i dunno i rly dunno.. haix.. im wondering after all i hav said did she rly listen n tske it in her heart mahx..
after some time tings seem okie n we made our way to selegie for dinner.. eat chicken rice.. den after tat slowly walk to take 23 back to tamp.. alight at interchange den i slowly walk her back hm.. send her up to her hse n there i go.. off back to hm again.. was feeling kinda emo again after we part.. i dunno y.. so dun bother ask mi..
sms along the way hm.. den reach hm msn her.. talk to her abt it for awhile.. but she seems quite irritated by it.. nvm its okie..
bi.. i noe u will be reading tis.. jus to let u noe.. tat will be my last time saying all tis tings to u anymore.. whether u listen n take it into consideration anot its up to u.. tis relationship now is all totally on u le..whether u r willing to change anot jiu can show mi how much u rly love mi le.. i dun hav to say much if u r rly willing to change jus for the sake of mi.. all im wondering now is.. y muz it change.. y muz u change.. y cant tings remain as it is for tis past 4mths.. wats wrong wif tis relationship.. hav i not put in enuf effort.. hav i not treat u good enuf.. was i bad to u all tis while.. wat cause u to change so dramatically.. i serious dunno but i rly wish to noe.. but all u can tell mi is u dunno.. maybe u rly dunno bahx.. u said u will try but u dunno if u can do it mahx.. means u cant be sure u can change back rite.. i dunno.. all i ask for now is ur understanding onli.. i will be veri happy if u r able to be back wat u r like in the past.. but even if u cant fully change back.. i do hope u hav rly tried ur veri best n show it to mi jiu ke yi le.. if i can change from wat im in the past to wat im now jus for u y cant u change back to wat u r jus for mi.. i dunno n i dun wanna ask anymore.. n i hope wat u told mi tis time isnt jus for the sake of saying onli.. show mi by action.. tats all i got to say liaox le.. change or not it all up to u to decide.. n as i said.. tis will be the last time im saying tis to u le.. so u ownself go tink abt wat i hav said tis whole day le bahx..
im rly loving the song lei by mi lu bing le.. it kinda saying how wat im feeling now bahx.. i gus so..