Friday, August 31, 2007Y
10:23 PM
feeling so fuck up so suckie now.. its like watever i say or do oso wrong.. tings jus cant go rite for mi tis few days.. fuck it..say hao tonite den talk.. den now say dun wan talk.. den nv tell mi anything abt it oso.. u say if i bother to read ur blog i will noe.. but cant be wan mi 24/7 oso looking at ur blog mahx.. how would i noe u xing qing bu hao no mood.. muz i everytime c ur blog first b4 talking to u.. den u say dun wan talk i of cos ask u go watch ur show mahx.. den u jiu lidat attitude mi..
okie lahx.. maybe u may tink its s veri small ting lahx.. but its all abt trust lohx.. if u cant keep to wat u say den jiu dun say mahx.. den since u say le of cos i will take ur words n wait.. but if u rly dun wanna talk cos u no mood can jus tell mi when i ask u rite.. y muz wait till i read ur blog den i get to noe.. the feeling of awaiting but end up got nth is so fuck up can..
i noe u din promise mi tat tonite will talk.. all tis is dun nd promise de.. if wanna talk oso muz promise den bu shi chan.. everything we say oso muz promise lahx.. u everytime keep everything to urself dun wan tell mi how would i ever get to noe wat u r tinking.. when i keep ting to myself u will noe how to ask mi say out ask mi tell u.. but when it comes to u no matter how i ask oso no use..
awhile was tat problem.. den now is tis problem.. i dunno wat is happening to tis relationship sia.. in the past when u tell mi tis u wont do other.. but as time pass the ting which u say n do r different le noe.. i dun wanna say wat its abt.. u shld noe de.. u tink i like quarrelling wif u mehx.. i dun like lohx.. i seriously dun like.. i hate it.. but everytime i jus say u abit den u jiu not happy liaox.. den u oways got so many other points to say mi back..
i noe u might get angry after reading tis.. but i still wanna say.. cos i wanna let u noe how n wat im feeling.. hav u ever tot of how i will feel anot.. try putting urself in my shoe n try feeling it if i treat u tis way lahx.. i noe its no point telling u so much when we both r angry.. but i still wanna give it a try.. like tis afternoon no matter how u talk to mi i at most jus say u back abit.. den after tat the way i talk to u oso jiu like normal le..
y muz u everytime let ur feelings n mood control wat u do.. i oso hav time when im pissed off when im unhappy.. but i still talk if u cal or wat.. i still bother to reply.. i dunno lahx.. i dun noe if u will ever understand tis anot bahx.. or maybe its jus mi.. mi being not good enuf to u.. tats y all tis tings r all happening.. i dunno.. onli u urself will noe..