Friday, August 31, 2007Y
1:27 PM
blog blog blog blog.. all i can do is blog.. all i can say out my feelings out is blog.. y muz its oways be blog.. wat i nd is someone hu can understand mi.. n a blog which i can jus type but got no response..suppose to bi miting bi to go help her dad collect something.. was all done n prep liaox le.. den she found out nd to sign den can take.. so okie lohx.. den we decide tml den go take.. but den tot still miting.. was all set to go out.. but den last min say not miting liaox le.. cos we r miting tml..
the feeling.. was so.. i dunno how to say lahx.. but i jus dun like tat type of feeling can.. i dun blame u for wanna help mi save money.. i noe u meant good.. but all i wan was jus to spend more time wif u nia.. its oso so difficult.. its oways money money n money.. y cant tings be done wif out money.. y is money oways obstructing my way to do tings..
yea.. u r rite.. i oways got abit i jiu spend n nv save.. but how much can i save wif jus 490 a mth.. i nd to eat.. nd for transport.. nd to buy tings hm.. tats y im trying my best to quit smoking by not buying ciggs anymore.. but although not buying ciggs wont help much either.. i hav nv ever had no money wif mi when im working in the past.. its now tat im in ns tats y.. i noe its my fault too for not saving money in the past.. but wats gone is gone le mahx.. i cant do anything to bring it back..
jus like wat happen to my money wif him.. once gone its gone.. there is nth i can do to bring it back.. was tinking tat when i ord i still hav tat money so tat life wont be so hard.. but neither do i noe tat all tis will happen.. im feeling bad enuf liaox le.. wanna give u a good life.. but i jus all say onli.. there is no way i can do it for u now.. im so sorry.. sorry tat u hav to go thru such hard times wif mi.. sorry for not giving u a good life like i said.. sorry for everything..
tings tat r happening nowadays.. its jus hurts mi so much.. no matter in relationship or personal.. everything is so rough for mi.. i hav nv had a good life in mi ever.. tried to lead one.. but oso canot.. nth seem to be on my side.. sometimes i jus feel like giving everything up.. but its all cos of u tat i pull thru till now u noe tat.. n jus cos of tat little arguement jus now u tell mi ni bu yao zuo le.. u noe how pain am i to hear tat..
if wat u were saying jus now was for real.. den i gus there is nth i can do abt it oso le bahx.. i noe u will be reading tis.. but by the time u read.. i gus i will be out le bahx.. i cant take all tis stress anymore le.. am going out for afew rides.. reply mi when u feel u wanna reply bahx.. bye for now..