Sunday, July 08, 2007Y
3:25 PM
once again back here.. dun seem to hav much to update too.. but jus feel like blogging.. dunno y too..after blogging ytd went to read her blog.. n she too jus finish blogging so i jiu read.. n she was jus saying i din sms or msn her for the whole day.. gus at tat point of time she still has not read my blog bahx.. but its okie..
msn her told her abt it.. den chatted for awhile.. wanted to talk on fone wif her but she dun wan.. tried to go to slp after tat.. but jus cant fall aslp.. keep rolling ard the bed.. im still not feeling good.. still having the type of feeling tat someting is still wrong.. i dunno..
till abt 1 lidat still cant slp.. n i feel so darn weird.. i dunno how to descirbe tat feeling.. it jus feels so bad.. sms n ask her if she willing to talk on fone anot.. she replied ok cal bahx.. though it sound like abit unwilling bahx i tink.. but i still cal n din say anything abt it.. talk on fone for awhile.. but was keeping quiet for most of the time bahx.. i jus dunno wat i shld say.. was waiting if she will say anything.. but she din rly talk much too.. everything seems so different now.. it jus aint like last time anymore.. i dunno if she feels it tat way anot.. but i jus got tis feeling.. maybe its jus mi one sided tinking or wat bahx..
hang up ard 230 lidat.. tried to slp again but i still cant.. my mind n my leg were stopping mi from doing so.. was starting to get abit irritated liaox.. tried my best to control myself.. all the way till abt 330.. im still so awake.. sms c if she has gone to bed le anot.. den sms for awhile she jiu din reply liaox le.. den i jiu din wait anymore le.. cos got tis feeling tat she wont reply tat sms bahx.. n i rly din recieve anymore sms after tat.. gus i fall aslp ard 4+ or 5 bahx.. the last time i c my watch its already almost 5 le..
woke up ard 1+ 2 jus now.. dunno wat to do oso.. dunno if we are gonna mit anot.. msn her n chatted for awhile as she was going to play audi soon le bahx.. afterall we are not miting for today.. but nvm bahx.. its okie cos she told mi y le.. den let her rest at hm bahx.. for now.. im tinking of going out.. anywere oso can.. but wif hu i jiu dunno le.. gus maybe alone or wat bahx.. jus like wat i used to be in the past.. going out alone isnt a big issue to mi le.. jus tat i hav to adapt to it again n everyting jiu will be fine le..
gones..