Tuesday, July 10, 2007Y
1:37 AM
back to blog again.. dun tink hav much to tings to update bahx.. but i jus cant slp.. so gus i will jus stay ard till i tink im able to fall aslp den onli i will go slp bahx..continue from the post i had jus now.. ever since jus now after we part from each other.. i got the same feeling as of the past few days.. the feeling of being lost n confused.. not noe-ing wat to do or wat shld i do.. was telling her everything while im on the bus to airport.. after reaching le i got totally no mood le.. was feeling abit hungry at first.. but was no longer hungry anymore after tat..
had a hard time trying to connect to the internet there too.. was reading my sent item on wat i send her.. den after tat read her blog.. i could feel the tears in my eyes already.. but i told myself to control.. not to let any tears flow down.. was feeling so xin ku can.. the feeling when u wanna cry but u cant cry..
after reading everything i kept quiet n start tinking.. till joseph gf came n we went over to popeye.. onli they eat.. i still jus cant eat.. was feeling so full.. all along i was tinking n tinking n tinking.. wat can i do to save tis?? wat can i do to help tis relationship?? how shld i do it?? wat ways are there for mi to choose?? will we be able to pull thru again tis time rd?? n lots of other qns.. i even tot of giving up.. but still i did not choose it.. cos i believe tat there cfm will be a way out for tis..
finally came out wif a solution.. sms told her abt it.. n she say okie.. but after tat jiu nv reply le.. i dunno if she has fallen aslp or is it tat she dun wanna reply.. will be waiting for her ans tml morning again.. she told mi sorry.. but its of no use le bahx.. saying sorry now wont change anything.. the fact of the impact cause will always be there now.. n i gus nth will be back like wat we use to hav in the past anymore le bahx.. i dunno oso..
i hav had enuf of tinking le.. till now im feeling headache in my head.. n seriously i getting abit tired of tis issue on gaming liaox le.. if tis solution oso cant do the trick den i rly dunno wat can le.. as for now.. there is nth much for mi to do anymore.. gus i will jus sit n relax chill till i feel slpy bahx.. but as for tml.. hope everything will be fine le..
ciaox..