Thursday, May 31, 2007Y
5:50 PM
im back hm for quite sometime liaox le.. n i aint feeling any good at all.. totally no mood to do anything liaox le.. something happen again.. haix.. im such a bad bf.. keeps on do the wrong thing again n again.. jus wat the fuck do i actually wan.. i dunno oso..continue from my post tis morning.. ytd nite ting was settle after sometime after.. baby cry in front of mi tis time.. im sorry to hav make u cry.. din mean it de.. but everything is settle le bahx.. already clear up everything wif baby le.. den jiu went to find david n jonathan at redhill mrt there.. from there decided to go to airport for dinner.. its already nearly 10 when we were abt to go..
reach there den baby they all bought a ice cream cake from swensens.. black froest chocolate cake.. i love it.. <3 after tat i was jus folowing them ard till they bring mi to Breeks.. jus open onli so i din noe its open.. ate at there.. had steak again.. while david n jonathan had chicken.. den baby eat fish.. lol.. dunno wat fish lai de.. but its all still quite nice lahx..
had a hard time cutting the cake sia.. cos its ice cream cake den veri hard.. lol.. the whole process during cutting the cake was so damn funny lahx.. canot tahan.. den 4 of us finish the cake.. n another ting is.. david keep on spotting the manager of the outlet.. haha.. sot dao david liaox lahx.. haha.. peng..
walk to t2 viewing point n slack while waiting for jeffrey to come.. den sit there n talk.. lol.. n ask david to help mi massage.. so shiok sia.. weeets.. cos whole body was aching.. nearly fall aslp while having the massage lohx.. cos too shiok liaox le mahx.. u cant blame mi for tat.. ;x den after send baby back hm.. waited all the way till she went in n close the door le b4 i leave.. cos veri late le.. scare later anyting happen i will regret forever sia..
woke up early tis morning.. den lie on bed to wait for baby de cal.. haha.. din wanna sms her although its already 11 le.. cos i noe tat she is tired.. wanna jus let her slp for awhile more lohx.. after she cal we decided to mit at ard 130 lidat.. but was raining so i told her to mit at tiong bahru.. den i was abit late.. cos when i reach my hse downstair the raining was still quite heavy.. so i jiu waited for awhile den i cai walk to the busstop..
reach there abt 150 lidat.. den cant find baby.. so cal her.. den went to atm there to find her.. tat was when everything start again.. i dunno if u noe it anot lahx.. i was actually kidding wif u but the way u ans mi was like so pek chek lidat.. so tats y i oso will rise my voice abit.. u noe i dun like ppl to lidat talk to mi de.. its oso the same for u de mahx.. u oso wont like mi to talk to u in tat type of tone rite??
i noe although after we was outside the mall im abit too harsh on u.. i jus wan u to tell mi wat u lidat.. but u jus give mi a face n the ans was more n more pek chek.. i rly din mean to scold u de.. its cos i hav nv let anyone lidat treat mi b4.. tats y its will be abit hard for mi to take it.. but im already trying my best to change everything for u le.. hope u feels tat..
n plus now so many tings is happen rite now.. im even more pek chek nowadays.. so i hope u will understand mi n dun mind mi.. its rly stress for mi during tis period.. i got totally nth left wif mi.. no even a single cent wif mi now.. den i still nd to tink of how i wanna eat.. find money for the hse.. buy tis buy tat.. somemore now still got the baby at hm.. its even more worse liaox.. i dunno lahx.. maybe i shld jus give up on everyting n jus let them die on their own.. if not i will sure go crazy sooner or later..
n wat u reply in the smses jus.. i hope u r saying tat cos u r angry jus now n doesnt rly mean it.. if rly even u oso ask mi to go away.. den i tink its rly oso time for mi to give up on everyting n myself oso le bahx.. wif out u there nth left for mi to continue live for le.. cos u r my life my everyting.. wif out u im totally nth.. so if even u were to leave mi now i gus there is rly no other reason for mi to continue tis type of life le..
tats all im gonna say here.. n im not gonna say anymore.. i dunno if u will come n read tis anot.. but if u rly do come n read i hope u will understand mi n give mi a chance.. i dun wish to end everyting jus lidat.. n im not giving it up tis fast yet.. i oso dun wanna give up.. if not wat we had done all tis while will be wasted.. for the last ting i wanna say is im sincerly sorry.. tats the least i can do now le.. gones.. hu ever tat wanna find mi can cal or sms mi.. but whether i choose to pick up or to reply its up to mi.. gone for good..