Thursday, May 31, 2007Y
11:47 PM
haix.. i gus wat happen today rly was a big big mistake bahx.. i din rly mean to scold her de.. i dun wan to oso.. but i dunno y it jus came out.. after scolding her.. i was asking myself.. how could i scold her lidat in public.. n gus wat.. i cant give myself a reason y.. i even ans to my own qns.. so jus wat the hell am i?? a dumbass or a idiot?? y do i seem to be chasing everyone away from mi.. haix..jus finish reading her blog.. n gus wat.. my tears were flowing down my cheeks once again.. i jus cant seem to control it.. maybe wat happen tis morning was both our fault.. but i tink the one most in fault is mi bahx.. mi n my hot temper.. mi n my fuck up attitude.. wat she say abt mi after the quarrel wat rite bahx.. my hot temper n fucking attitude.. if not for tis none of tat would hav happen le bahx.. im seriously such a idiot..
she say tat she doesnt noe wat the outcome will be.. whether will we still be tgt or will be break.. but after reading all those tat she say.. i gus i will jus hav to be prep for the worse le bahx.. din wan tings to turn out tis way de.. i dun wan the outcome to be a bad one either.. but i gus i wont hav the cheeks to ask her for forgivness le bahx.. after tis i dun even noe if i still can face her anot le..
but seriously i hope she can give mi one more chance for mi to change.. i nd time to change.. let time prove tings.. but afterall its all still up to her bahx.. i will still respect her decision.. but from wat i can c is.. if anyting were to change or happen.. i gus the smiling happy go lucky melvin will be gone from tis world for good le..
tink i shall not be talking abt tis anymore le bahx.. the more i say the most i she bu de.. the more i will tink of.. the more tears tat will flow down my face.. tink i will jus lie down n slowly wait for the ans to be out bahx..