Saturday, April 28, 2007Y
8:08 PM
haix.. back to blog abit abt wat happen for tis whole week bahx.. din enjoy my week at all.. i dunno y oso.. jus tat im feeling damn no mood nowadays bahx.. the feeling of loneliness, fear came back once again.. its seems to be always hunting mi.. i jus cant seem to enjoy my good time for long man..monday woke up ard 11 lidat bahx.. den mit my frens at ard 2 lidat to go do tattoo.. actually not say do bahx.. is jus touchup onli.. den was suppose to mit baby after her sch for dinner de.. but end up oso nv mit.. cos she says she is lazy to mit.. was feeling quite disappointed lahx.. but wat to do.. so jiu went back hm after tat lohx..
wat happen on tuesday i jiu dun rly rember liaox le.. onli rember i i pack my stuffs for camp den jiu mit zip to go tamp mit baby for dinner at bedok.. eat stingray.. xl n des was oso there.. something real cute happen.. but gus im not gonna say it out here bahx.. den pei baby to interchange den i jiu go back camp le..
den for the following few days was all training n training n training.. like as if we aint human lidat.. but wat to do.. lan lan suck thumb lohx.. cos the sgt mahx.. den jiu like damn super big fuck lohx.. jus dun till one day i cant take it den tink jiu tats too bad le bahx.. i dunno wat i will do.. n i oso dun dare to tink of wat i will do.. so lets jus keep it a secret for the moment bahx.. wait till the time comes jiu will noe le..
was suppose to bookout last nite de.. told baby tat i will mit her after my camp n her sch to go sim lim get his bro com.. den last min they told mi tat i will be doing guard duty.. its like wat the fuck lohx.. out of so many ppl they dun wanna choose they wanna choose mi.. kaox.. i rly got nth to say sia.. at first told mi tat i wil hav no more duties for tis month den now lidat.. fuck SAF big time..
bookout ard 8+ tis morning.. took bus to tamp interchange den change 291 to prime there.. cos wanna buy breakfast for baby n her bro.. bought chwee kuey n chee chong fun for them.. reach baby hse le..but baby was still feeling slpy.. took some time den manage to wake her up.. but end up the first ting she go to was to her com.. den jiu sit n play game.. actually i wont be so pissed off de.. but i jus kinda dun like it lahx.. i dunno how to explain it oso.. am i in the wrong to wan her to hav her breakfast first b4 doing anything else anot wor.. haix..
left her hse ard 12 lidat bahx i tink.. not sure.. nv c time.. den jiu head for sim lim.. was feeling better by den le.. den took some time to do the com n we took a cab back ard 4 lidat.. reach her hse rest awhile jiu start fix le.. deb baby oso jiu start playing game again le.. i dun mind her playing game.. cos she dunno much n oso cant help us much.. but den the part when i hate it most is when im talking to her n she is jus concentrate on playing her game.. is like as if im totally not there sia.. haix.. i dunno wat to say lahx..
i noe u will read my blog.. hope u wont be angry abt mi saying our own tings out jus like tat.. but tis is the onli place i can let myself out the most.. sometimes i will jus tink.. do i rly mean a ting to u anot.. or am i jus a someone normal to u.. im sorry to hav tink lidat.. but wat im saying now is rly wat i feeling.. i rember we once promise each other tat there will be no secrets between usde rite?? do u still rember it?? its not tat i dun trust u or i dun hav the confidence in u.. but its sometimes the tings tat u do tat make mi feels tis way.. i jus dunno y i will lidat oso lahx.. of all the tings tat happens.. i seem to onli care abt our relationship.. there is nth else much i will care abt liaox le..
haix.. tink tats all i will say here bahx.. there is still lots of tings i wanna say n lots of qns i wanna ask.. but im not gonna say it out here.. its jus tings between mi n u.. n i choose to remain silent.. whether for now or forever.. i dunno.. all i noe my is im so messed up now.. bwg liaox.. ciaox..