Monday, October 23, 2006Y
10:22 PM
:::IT'S QUITE A LONG POST.. DON'T READ IT IF YOU THINK IT'S NOT WORTH YOUR TIME:::Haix.. Wat a good day i had today.. Could not rly slp last nite.. Tinking of alots of tings.. Tinking of wats happen.. Y muz it be oways mi.. Can anyone tell mi y pls.. I rly dun understand a single shit at all lohx.. Starting from the beginning of the year till now.. Nth is done in anyway i wanted it to be.. No matter watever tings i do are oways wrong..
Cant rly slp so went to camp damn early today.. Took the first train.. Reach camp ard 630.. Wait for my fren to tell mi something which he say is impt to mi.. Asked him thru the fone last nite but he die die oso dun wanna say wat it is.. Wasn't rly shock to hear wat he told mi tis morning bahx.. I hav alrdy gus tis would happen.. My regulars said wanna charge mi SOL.. Jus cos i was on mc for too long n din go back to camp.. Wat stupid logic is tis anyway man.. Rly disappointed wif them.. When they wan mi to do tings for them i hav nv said a no.. Helping them in watever way which i can help.. But end up tis is wat i get in return for all tis tat i hav done.. Rly had enuf of all tis shit liaox..
They told mi tat one of my officer wanna c mi after lunch to talk to mi.. But i wait n wait like a stupid idiot for nth.. Making myself look like a fool in front of all those bastards.. But i still continue to wait.. Alrdy sibei dulan liaox le.. But i still ren.. Sms wif dumdum n jonathan for almost the whole day bahx.. Send abt 200 sms for the whole day wif jus the 2 of them.. Dumdum keep ask mi no to dulan n jus relax dun tink so much.. I tired my best liaox le.. But still no use.. Wats mi is mi bahx i tink.. My temper alrdy wasn't veri good from b4 liaox le.. Its alrdy a miracle tat i can last for so long liaox le.. Sorry..
Found out tat they even went to my hse for hm visit.. I onli found out after i cal my daddy.. Was damn pissed off when i hear tat lohx.. U guys rly wanna do till lidat.. U guys rly wan to push mi to the veri end izzit.. Waited till 4+ den saw them come back.. Once they come back they went into the office to dunno discuss wat.. Onli after tat den my 2 other officers came back.. Was cal upon ard 5 bahx.. When into the office to be question.. Den tat old idiot keep shoot mi wif all kinds of diff ting.. Saying tat dunno if all my mc were real anot.. Dunno whether did i stay at hm during my day on mc anot.. N oso say tat im insubordination.. Even a simple book in book out ting oso wanna say..
Talk till quite late.. End up i din get charge but jus got confinement.. But still not sure wat type of confinement n how long will i get.. Although it at least a good new to dumdum n jonathan bahx.. But i still not satisfied wif the ting.. I din do anything wrong wat.. Y muz i serve the punishment for something which i din do anything wrong.. The more i tink the more dulan i am.. So dulan tat i cant rly eat oso.. But still i eat something cos dumdum wanted mi to eat.. Dun wan anyone to be worry for mi.. N cos of all tis stupid tings i cant even do the tings which im suppose to do today.. Been dragging it for dunno how many donkey times alrdy.. N oso cos of tat i tink i made her angry cos of my attitude bahx.. I din rly mean to be lidat de.. But i rly cant help it.. Rly din mean it de.. Im rly sorry okie.. Sms-ed u but u din reply mi at all.. I dunno if u r angry or wat.. But if u r den i say sorry for all tat happen.. Hopefully u will be alright bahx.. I dun feel veri good oso.. Im bring alot of unhappiness to everyone ard mi.. Sorry for all tat.. N tis Sorry is to everyone tat i hav hurt..
:::To You Know Who You Are:::
I'm sorry for everything that has happened for the past few days or weeks.. I know a lot of things happened.. Whether is it last minute or not.. There are alot of things beyond my control.. I know i have a bad temper and attitude.. But i hope that you will give me some time for me to change for the better.. I promise.. I guess you should know it is hard to change a habit.. But i know i will be able to change it.. Just for you.. Im sorry for everything..
I jus tis might be the longest post in my blog ever bahx.. Eveything had its first time.. I gus i shld stop all tis le bahx.. Ciaox.. Good Nite to everyone bahx..